Crying

Hi Lilo, nothing wrong with a few tears and to feel scared, believe it or not you have done the worst bit the tests and waiting for results.  Good luck tomorrow, you can do it and will face whatever the team has to tell you.  Everyone on this site is a great support and it helps to write it down and get those feelings out.  Virtual hug

Mo xx

Hi Lylo,please do not have negative thoughts or believe what you read online , yes the biopsies can be uncomfortable . I remember going to my first meeting , and like you it was the first time i had ever been ill or entered a hospital for myself so did not know what to expect,  but i soon found out  and just thought what will be will be and just wanted to get on with the surgery and treatment . Remember all these consultants and their teams are very experienced in this field  and offer the best treatment/surgery available, we all owe them so much , well i know i do. You will get through this and we try our best to give you honest answers from past experiences. You are far from cowardly ,you are worried ,anxious ,frightend etc which is only natural , some people deal with it better than others , it does not mean you are weak or cowardly. Im sure thigs wil become a lot clearer after your meeting, take care ,i will be thinking of you .

                                                                                               Chris x

It’s natural to feel scared.  Once you’ve had your meeting, you will know the plan and start to move on.  Let us know what they say and keep posting on here x

Lylo...

There's nothing wrong with the way you feel. We all felt that way. The rotten thing about this disease is that it poleaxes you when you are otherwise feeling good. It comes out of nowhere. And we are not strong or brave or fighters. That's how folk who don't have cancer tend to label us. We are mothers, fathers, daughters and sons, sisters and brothers and we get on with getting better. Your consultation is to come but later in the day it will be over and you will be clearer in your mind. Once there is a plan organised by your doctors things will move fast and you will feel much more in control. There are plenty of us who have survived and thrived. Drop in any time to ask about things as you need. There's always a friendly face.

See if you can get a  rough timeline of treatment so that you can plan 

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If you have time this morning, have a look here for some helpful tips What to ask at your oncologist

It's useful to take a pen and paper with you and write things down. They should let your husband in with you at least for this first meeting and he will hear and remember things you don't.

You can send a friend request to any of us if you feel a chat in private might be better. 

Have look at my blog when you are ready but take it with a pinch of salt....I am a wimp and yet here I am 20 months later still smiling 

Hi Lylo.

Hope you're feeling a little more reassured if you've read the responses to your post.

I can only reiterate what has been said.  It's perfectly normal to have all those feelings at this stage due to the unknown.  It really does become easier once you have a plan in place and you can get on with treatment.  And please remember that our bodies all react differently to the treatment so not everyone experiences the side effects to the same extent.

It's much better to be treated Lylo than leaving well alone, believe me!

Sending you lots of positive thoughts for your consultation today.  Do let us know how you get on when you're feeling up to it.

Linda x

Hi Lylo, the answers you have had already say it all, we have all been scared of what's to come, nothing wrong with that. Once you have your treatment plan you will feel better about things, then once you start the treatment the time will fly and you will be at the end of it before you know. You can do it, many of us on here have,  and we are happy to help with any worries you have just ask away someone will always answer.  Good luck with today's consultation.

Regards Ray.

Hi Lilo

I don't believe any of us are brave or fighters.  We are just ordinary people facing some difficult times.  I stayed "brave" after my diagnosis until a few weeks later at Christmas lunch with the family.  I then broke down.  It happens to us all and is noting to be worried or ashamed about.

In the early stages you will live from appointment to appointment until you can reconcile what is happening and a plan comes together - so it is natural to feel like you do at the moment.

Whatever happens to you on your journey the people on this site will be there to help you and offer support - not judgement.  You will find your inner strength and your story will help others following in your footsteps.

Good luck!

Hi Lylo we’ve all been there  and done it cried buckets m I arranged my own funeral in my head. But hey 2 years later I am sat writing this. If you want to chat private send me a friend request. We are a small friendly bunch on here. Hooe consultant has given yiu some peace of mind let us know what he has had to say when you have a minute take care Hazel xx