Attitude

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Morning All,

I think everyone wonders how they will feel when the word "cancer" is mentioned to them.  Today although I haven't been officially diagnosed, mentally I feel quite weak and I really don't know if I am going about it the right way.

I have my CT scan next Sunday.  The Consultant did want to see me Wednesday but I shall find out tomorrow if he still wants to see me or wait for the CT results.  I also have an appointment with the dietician which I shall still keep because due to where the tumour is in the lower jaw of my mouth am finding it difficult to eat.  My tongue also hits it when I talk so at the end of the day my mouth gets very sore.

Now my husband and son want me to go with them this afternoon to an organised Christmas Party where there will be lots of children and parents.  My husband can see how depressed I am becoming. My son has actually volunteered to be Father Christmas  My reason for not going  is I don't want to catch a cold etc.  I did have flu jab in the week but I know it takes a couple of weeks to be fully effective  Now am I being silly wrapping myself up in cotton wool?  Should I go out regardless and make the most of it but  feel as though I am planning my funeral already.  I always thought I would be a fighter but suddenly am feeling very depressed with the situation I am now in.  

Can anyone give me advice.  Are these feelings what you experienced?

  • I can see your point on the cold catching, but going out will take your mind off the cancer for a while, with what I know now I would say go out as doing things really helps.

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    FormerMember in reply to Ron51

    Hi Ron,

    I'm going. I've got to be upbeat and positive.

    Thank you for replying x

  • Hi Mrs Wozza, this exactly what you should be doing, getting out of the daily routine so you are not worrying about other issues, you cannot live like this, in fear all the time, it's not fair on yourself. I'm pleased you are seeing the dietician as she can maybe prescribe or advice on what to try eating wise. You are overwhelming yourself with fear when there is no need to, you are under the care of an experienced team so whatever the outcome they will do what is needed in a professional manner. Have you seen your Dr for something to help with depression as it will help you get through it? All i can say is hang on in there and wait for the results etc then go from there. Wishing you and your family all the best, take care

                                               Chris x.

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    FormerMember in reply to chris2012

    Hi Chris,

    I did go out yesterday and had a great time. I don't think l need anti depressants yet, confused and frightened of the unknown yes but depressed no. I've cried but l think it's shock and you have to sort your thoughts and head around it all.. It's just never experiencing this l get conflicting advice, some people saying you must rest?. I'm finding l'm getting very tired and where this tumour is situated have issues eating and talking. Never in my life before have  l been told to keep my weight up. Awaiting phone call from Consultant's Secretary today x

  • Do things, you might well spent time not being able to after, as for the diet that was one of the best things about it (if there is a best thing), being told by a professional to eat all the things "they" say are bad for you, I haven't been told to stop yet after 4 1/2 years so it must be ok to carry on.

    Also the getting tired bit could be depression, I went to my GP after my op as I new I was depressed but didn't take anything for it as it can be bad but is mostly ok and the tablets as far as I know only mask it, I think most of us sufferwith it so it could be classed as normal.

  • Fingers crossed for you. Keeping busy can be difficult but it’s really good medicine and at this time of year there’s lots to do. 

    Dani 

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  • Hi it’s perfectly rational and normal what you are feeling ,but glad you went out .I even planned mentally my funeral while waiting for treatment didn’t tell hubby until afterwards , I also hid notes  around the house and wrote Christmas labels out last year in case I wasn’t here this year. I found then in my wrapping up box 2 weeks ago and shed a tear , hubby thought I was off my trolley ! But when I met my m d t team and things fell into place all the worry went and once treatment started everything settled down and now 16 month post radiotherapy living my life to the  max.

     Ancer used to be a fearful death sentence, in my case I treat it as a mere blip and ive met through the forums and in person many people who have become firm friends and we meet up and keep in touch 

    good luck keep in touch 

    Hazel xx

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  • Hi

    for me attitude was everything, early on in my treatment i met someone who was dealing with cancer for last 12 years yet they were full of life and positivity, i felt there must be something in that so although i avoided crowds / children i went for long walks myself most days, it helped my fitness and the time walking helped me to process what i was going through. its not for everyone but its well worth trying to be positive and take every day as it comes.

    good luck and stay strong

    chas