Hi everyone, new here. Ive recently been diagnosed with oesophageal cancer along with lung and liver ( stage 4 ). Ive always been a fighter and on the surface put on a brave face. Never suffered with mental health but lately feel this is getting the better of me ? Ive convinced my wife and grown up kids to crack on as i dont want to become a burden. Im finding it increasingly difficult holding it together and feeling very lonely !! Some days im getting the notion to jump into the car and leave. Inside me im finding a brick wall in my way. I know it was my decision to tell all my loved ones to carry on but theres no one for me to talk to. Im getting to my wits end dealing with the cancer and my life changing. Am i putting out a cry for help ? I dont know. Never in my life needed help. But in my head im screaming !! Is there anyone feeling the same and how are you dealing with it ? Thank you Gary
