Rant and a moan

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Ok, still waiting to see an oncologist. Had an MRI done on my hip today due to the DR's concern my cancer has spread to my bone. still need to have an Echo and cannot wait till the 31st as having another endoscopy where they will fit a stent into my oesophagus to widen it as I cannot swallow food. They will be doing it under general anaesthetic due to me being me being tolerant to sedation. 

I am so sick and tired of soups and drinking Fortisip when I don't fancy and can't eat soup. Fortisip keeps sending my blood sugars through the roof and my diabetic nurse is not very happy with me at the moment.

Damn I really miss a good chew on normal food and the satisfaction of actually eating!

Sorry for the rant everyone.

  • Hi alrightson,

    Rant Away, never apologies for expressing your feelings, these are tough times for you, and I hope that you will soon see the oncologist so that you know what the long term plan is. 

    In the meantime, take care of you

    Lowe'

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  • Thank you Lowe'. I know things with the hospital are happening quickly but to me it just time seems to be moving too slowly and with it grows the frustration.

  • ditto exactly what lowe said, alrightson, rant away, its so frustrating, just sitting here trying to get the courage to try and get this waterproof dressing off that is after my laparoscopy and jpeg fitting, christ hindsight and all that, agony and i am now questioning myself, 10 hours wired up to a pump for 500 calories!!!, i can manage my shakes and soups which will be triple that.  only good thing its staying indoors weather so i can hide.  good luck with being able to swallow, god i am always hungry now after no appetite for ages, and all the adverts are showing flipping christmas dinners for gods sake. god my to do list after THE OP is to pig the flip out, which of course i wont be able to do, but just to eat something without the pleasure of seeing it again, happy days

    hope they come back to you soon, keep us updated, this forum is the one thing that keeps us sane, and also makes you feel normalish, but above all supported and not alone x

    grumpy jules today! apologies and its only mid morning

  • I hear that. I honestly cannot wait to chew on a nice and juicy pork chop and naw on the bone lol.