It’s Paul’s funeral tomorrow and I am laying here awake with so many thoughts going through my head. How do I cope, how do I say goodbye? These past 4 weeks have been leading upto this day and I don’t think I am ready to say goodbye. It is going to be a military funeral so I know it will be a fitting goodbye for him as he gave so many years of his life to the army.
I am sorry to post on here but you have all been so lovely to me since I first posted in November. I know you are all on your own journeys and I hope you are all ok.
sending love to you all xx
just wish i could be there to sit with you, and give the biggest hug, some times the head wont just switch off, of course it wont tonight, you have been through so much, and still have a big day tomorrow. how do you prepare for this, wether they leave suddenly or its a slow count down, it doesnt make it any easier, i cant imagine how those 4 weeks have been butterfly, please dont leave our family, all here for you, the fact you are still posting although at such a tough terrible time, is testamount to you, reaching out and letting us in. have you family and friends around tomorrow, we do have our own journeys but all are so interlinked, no matter at what stage we are at.
i too cant turn my head off tonight, so am trying to tune out unsuccessfully. you may be on autopilot tomorrow, but sounds like it will be such a fitting send off. reach out if you need to chat, rant, cry, the forum family all here for you.
as we know, there is no rule book for this , well too many swear words that i cant say about this horrible unknown devastating type, but all here for you. if there is anything i/we can do, not sure if you have said where you are, just thinking of you and sending love, hugs and as much virtual support as is possible. hoping you will get some sleep soon
xx jules
Hi Butterfly77,
Oh Sweetheart, my heart goes out to you on what must be a tough night for you.
Don’t be sorry for posting- support will always be available here for you.
Only you will know what feels right for you - there is no time limit for grief. Wishing you strength to get through tomorrow and the days that follow, for as long as it takes.
Sending love, Debbie xx
Hi Beverley
I’m so sorry to hear today’s the day and I send you so much love and support everything happened so quickly so I understand you don’t feel ready to say goodbye. It sounds like it will be a fitting funeral and I do hope you find the strength to get through the day. Please know that we will all be thinking of you and sending love and support xxx
Nothing I can say will make it easier for you today or in the coming days ……. but know that so many of us are thinking of you and sending so much love to give you strength. Stay in the forum as youome to terms with your loss …. we will be here for you as you will be for us.
Geraldine xx
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