My name is Ray ( or Geoferret ) and I have been going through treatment for oesophageal cancer at the junction with my stomach since diagnosis in March 23.
I consider my self pretty positive and single minded when I need to be.
I have had four rounds of FLOT chemo, multiple x-rays and scans, surgery and am currently waiting on a date for more chemo. I have tackled everything on a day by day basis and managed pretty well so far.
Great news post surgery that there are no signs of cancer cells in the margins of my removed Tumor.
My problem right now is with eating. I have had 75% of my stomach removed and am feeling full all of the time even without eating. Initially I ate pretty well but later as my scar tissue has shrunk I have been getting the old dumping syndrome. It makes you feel very unwell and I think I have gotten some form of mental issue where coming for smells and looking at food presented makes me feel really tearful at the prospect of eating. Very unlike me but I'm getting very emotional and depressed with it all. Seven months of one thing after another will do that to you.
I am so lucky to have received the diagnosis and treatment that I have that I don't have the right to feel upset and depressed. I'm so disappointed in myself in feeling this way.
I'm sure that a lot, if not all of what I'm feeling is pretty normal but even knowing that doesn't help right now and the thought of going through more chemo that affected my taste and made me not want to eat first time round is even more daunting.
End of moaning...lol. Just thought I'd share how I've been feeling in case it helps me to get it out or for someone else to know they're not alone.
Best regards to all of you where ever you are in the process.
Geo.
