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Hi Everyone

i just received news on Monday after LLETZ that I have cervical cancer. I can’t even believe I have just written that! Next is MRI. I’m so scared. I also suffer with severe anxiety. Anyone out there have any advise?? 

  • Hiya I recieved my news on the 20th january after lletz mine ended up being staged at 1b2 had a radical hysterectomy on the 13th February and got the all clear 3 weeks after, without further treatment just regular check ups.

    It is a very scary time but the best thing is just to take one thing at a time, each appointment is a step closer to being cancer free. I suffer with anxiety too and I had times I wanted to just run away but I pulled up my big girl pants and done it and am out the other side. 

    Stay strong u can do this, they will have u seen really quickly too, which is good as you don't have too much time to think. 

    • Good luck. Xxx
  • Hi  and welcome to our group

    It must have been a tremendous shock for you to get this diagnosis, and especially if you suffer from severe anxiety. Do you currently have anything to help with your anxiety? 

    My advice would be to take a very deep breath and try to stay calm. Unfortunately there is a lot of waiting for tests and results in the process of diagnosis and deciding on a treatment plan and we all understand what that’s like-absolutely horrible.

    Hopefully as this has been identified through a LLETZ procedure it will be an early cancer, but you will need to wait for further results before a stage can be confirmed. The mri is a necessary part of this process, and hopefully you won’t have to wait too long to have that done. Because of your anxiety, can I suggest you use an eye mask for the scan? I found that helpful during mine, and your head will not be inside the machine. It is also very noisy at times, so just be aware of that-although I was given headphones and had the radio played through them. 

    Try to take one day at a time, as a cancer diagnosis of any sort is a lot to process. Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on, and if you have any questions please ask away. Lots of us have been through this and will do our best to help.

    Take care.

    Sarah xx


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  • Thanks so much for your reply. I am just in a daze today. Sharing Your experience really is encouraging and I really appreciate you taking the time to respond. Thank you x

  • Thanks for taking the time to message Sarah. I just feel like an alien in my own body today and just very very sad so your message really helps. 
    m thanks again xx

  • Your welcome hun, I was in a daze the whole time, take someone with you when you have appointments with consultants as u find your brain doesn't take it in and they can think of questions to ask or write down a list before. 

    I kept myself busy and even done extra shifts at work to keep me occupied as thinking too much didn't help my anxiety. 

    Here if u ever need a chat. Xxx

  • You’re very welcome  

    It’s very hard when you first hear those words of a diagnosis, but things will hopefully become easier once you know what you’re dealing with. It just takes a bit of time to process things in your mind.

    Good advice I see there from  about taking someone with you to appointments. I didn’t the first time, and I couldn’t take it all in. I didn’t make that mistake again! Another pair of ears is so good for picking up on things you might miss. Also about keeping busy-it distracts you from worrying about stuff.

    Sarah xx


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  • Thanks Ladies 

    I am so lucky to have an amazing partner who was with me on Monday and has agreed to take all the calls moving forward. I am exhausted today I just can’t seem to sleep and when I wake up it just all hits me slap in the face. I cannot tell you both how good it feels to talk to you both. 

  • My MRI is scheduled now for Monday David just took the call there now.

  • That’s not long to wait, but there will be a wait for results. So good you have your lovely partner to support you through this-that’s going to be really helpful for you.

    Sarah xx


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