Hi. Having just received my diagnosis, I was obviously very upset for a couple of days.....but now I’m surprised at how calm I feel and a bit worried, that I should be thinking about it more. I’m just carrying on as if I’ve not been told it,. Is this common? I’m just waiting for my letter confirming the exact date of my surgery, which I was told would probably be the 1st week of May. Am I just strong, in denial, or maybe it will hit me like a brick when I wake up from the surgery.
Hi LillySue53 Welcome to the online community but sorry you find yourself here.
We all cope differently when being told about our cancer diagnoses. My cancer is a different cancer to yours, but when I was first diagnosed it was after I had a hysterectomy, and a tumour was found in the muscle in the womb. For me it had gone, they had already taken it away without me knowing it was there, so I never actually felt like I had cancer. When it came back in my lungs, after the initial shock I was very matter of fact. I just wanted to know what was going to happen, what treatment I was going to have, and wanted to get on with it. The one real emotion I did have, was I felt so guilty for putting my family through this. I know that is not a rational feeling, but it is however something that I do feel.
You may find that you feel different once you have the letter with the surgery date. But just know however you are feeling it is ok, and there will be some days when you may not feel so strong, and that is ok too. Cancer brings a whole rollercoaster of emotions, and each day you may feel different to the last.
I hope you don't have to wait too long for the surgery, and that all goes well for you.
Take care x
Thank you Chelle for your comments. Yes I am now feeling on a roller coaster. My total calmness, now has days of anxiety, but I’m hoping this is mainly because of the “don’t know what or how bad or when I’m going in for the surgery”..... my husband is a fantastic support so I will get thru this. I’m sure xxx
