Feeling down, confused and uncertain

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I had breast cancer in 2013 and by 2018 it had metastasised (not sure that's the right word) and spread to my bones. I have been told there is no cure and the prognosis was 3-4years. As my cancer feeds on oestrogen I had an operation to remove my ovaries and Fallopian tubes, I had barely recovered when I had to go in for an operation to put a metal rod to support my femur and then a few weeks  later the other leg was done. Whilst going through all this I had been suffering with ulcerative colitis, my relapse had been going on for over a year. With constant pain and accidents I decided the best bet was to have an ileostomy. My operation was 29th January this year, due to complications I was kept in for three weeks and the morning after I got home I had to go back in for a week. Since then l had been advised by Matt Hancock to strictly shield myself. Therefore it has been just me and my husband in the house since February. Shielding has been slightly relaxed so that from 1st August I can walk to a shop or a place of worship or meet six people outside. I have been going stir crazy just needing a friend to talk to, cup of tea and slice of cake...I just feel so lonely at the moment.....

sorry for the long post

  • Hi Jennylou,

    You have been through so much, but try to stay strong. This virus has certainly not helped that's for sure. I have been shielding since the beginning of the lockdown and slightly before. I know they are relaxing it on the 1st August, but extreme caution is obviously still  needed, and it will be interesting to see what this easing of the lockdown will do. I am finding it tough too as I was diagnosed with breast cancer in march last year and had chemotherapy then a bilateral mastectomy, and then radiation therapy. All this finished just before Christmas. I am now on Letrozole to knock out the oestrogen. I get side effects from this little pill.....Lots of aches and pains and I have neuropathy in my feet and fingers. Due to this I had to stop driving, which made me feel quite depressed. And this year I thought we would be able to do a little bit more and enjoy life a little. Then the  dreaded virus struck...….I spent most of last year isolating so I didn't pick anything up as my immune system was compromised due to the chemo....I know its not easy, but keep strong.....my husband and myself try to keep as occupied as we can....he works two nights a week so at least he has a break from me...(haha)…..I am supposed to take a pill which is to protect my bones....but the side effects look really scary, so I haven't started to take it yet......it worries me not taking it yet, but I just don't feel I want any more side effects to have to deal with. Its very hard to go through the things we have and no one else can fully understand how you feel no matter how good they are. 

    Its nice to talk to you and I wish you all the very best I can

    xxxx