It's been a while since I used the Macmillan forums having a single mastectomy May 2016 was due to have a diep reconstruction this year. On the angiogram to check my abdomen blood vessels back in May it has only just come to light that I have a tumour on my spine. It was found incidentally during the scan and I seemed to slip through the net until a random visit for another matter to my GP two weeks ago it seems that the results hadn't been referred to the breast clinic and nothing had been actioned since the scan in May. I've got a appointment with the oncologist next Month to discuss treatment and it's been a bit of a blurry rush to get me in the system of MRI and CT scans. It's ironic how I've just started to make plans to study science and maths access to HE starting next Tuesday after a long period of depression and anxiety I haven't worked since last May. I've also got a new partner who I met in March as a friend and we became a couple in July after me being single for 12 years. I'm so lucky that he isn't phased by my lack of breast and is a lovely kind man. I'm anxious about not wanting to put my life on hold while all this cancer stuff is going on. I'm feeling pretty angry that this only has come to light and been dealt with now four months later ( my GP had obviously seen something on my notes and realised that I hadn't been referred for any appointments with the BC team) and I've been sitting with this ticking bomb inside me oblivious and not had any treatment. Anyway I just wanted to have a moan and vent. Trying to keep positive and hope that I can keep my life as normal for everyone around me. I feel bad for my new partner and guilty that I'm putting him and my kids through all this. Hugs to all ladies going through this crap and hope that I can remain physically and mentally strong x
Hi there. I was diagnosed with lobular breast cancer 3 years ago, two weeks after my diagnosis i had an mri which picked up a tumor on my pelvis. I then had to have a bone scan and a biopsy which confirmed i had bone mets to my pelvis, ribs, spine x 2, both legs and left shoulder. I had a right mastectomy then i had a left mastectomy and reconstructive surgery and they discovered i also had it in my left breast. I have been completely stable for the last couple of years. Hopefully this will continue. What im trying to say is you are stonger than you think and you will deal with whats happening and there is no need to feel guilty. I always say " cancer doesn't have me, i have cancer" and i will be a step ahead of it as long as i can.
Your post gives me inspiration and hope. I guess I'm still in shock and haven't had time to process this yet. I'm trying to put on a brave face for my partner and close family ( haven't told my kids and doubt that I want to). Thanks again xx
I didn't tell my kids untill i came to terms with it myself, so i totally understand where your coming from. Sending you good thoughts and power vibes. Take care. X
