Very scared

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 Hi everyone,

I keep having dreams about my breast cancer returning. I was diagnosed in 2023 and had a lumpectomy. I have been for 2 annual mammograms so far and both were clear so I don’t know why I’m so convinced that this year will be different. I will be going for my 3rd mammogram in October.

I’m struggling to cope, it's occupying my brain practically all the time. I’ve also suffered with depression and anxiety for many years now and take several medications for it so that’s probably not helping.

Also I was put on Letrozole after my surgery. The first symptom I got was pain in my legs which I can cope with most of the time. However, for a long time now I’ve been struggling with brain fog and not coping with it at all. If I’m having a conversation with someone I try to think ahead to what word I need and a lot of the time I can’t ‘find’ it and then start panicking because the person I’m talking to is looking at me waiting for my reply. I’ve read a few posts on here about Letrozole and brain fog but, because I catastrophise about everything, I can’t accept that it’s the Letrozole that’s the cause.

Rosie xx

  • Hi  

    It looks like you are struggling at the moment. I know you also got input from a number of people following your reply to an older post. I wonder if it’s worth booking an appointment with your GP to see if you can get more help? There are also a number of ways you can get help from Macmillan- as shown on the linked page. www.macmillan.org.uk/.../get-help

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    Macmillan Support Line - 0808 808 00 00, 7 days a week between 8am-8pm

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  • Hi Coddfish, Thanks for your reply. I’m too scared to see GP, concerned about what they might say. Stupid I know

  • Hi  

    Do you have family or. Friend who could support you to go to an appointment? Please consider calling the Macmillan helpline too. 

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    Macmillan Support Line - 0808 808 00 00, 7 days a week between 8am-8pm

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    I have metastatic Triple Negative Breast Cancer, in remission

  • Family struggle with my mental health so are a bit dismissive about it. I only have a couple of good friends and wouldn’t want to ask them. I will seriously consider calling the support line.

    Thank you for being so kind.