Hi everybody,
I could do with some gentle hugs and good wishes,
On Wednesday 6.5.26 I woke up unable to swallow and my temp was 37.4. Due to recently starting Movicol because of blockage effects of 1st chemo and after previously speaking to BCN about said blockage who suggested quickest is see GP and if necessary then contact hospital bleep holder.
Temp at GP was 38 with very low blood pressure!
I ended up contacting bleep holder and hospitalisation.
I have ulcers in mouth and throat (hence sooo painful to swallow) plus my BP was minus 0.0!
I have been on soo many IV drips, foul tasting mouth washes, I can't swallow much food and feel rubbish.
After my first chemo session (2nd is supposed to be next Saturday) I actually thought I was doing and coping sooo well but it seems I aren't
The thing is my op was successful 2 x cancers removed all lymph nodes removed with clear margins.
My chemo is supposed to be to treat "possible rogue loose seeds" and prevent further cancers.
However if it isn't known if rogue seeds are there and the chemo is preventative - the question is :- is it worth putting yourself through help for months ?
My chemo is until end September followed by added extra medications and a course of radiotherapy.
I am not sure I can handle anymore and I am usually a strong willed Yorkshire lass!!
