The mental build up to a mastectomy..

Oh I wish you the best in your upcoming surgery.  I did not have a mastectomy but sounds like you are doing all you can to get relaxed but it is common to feel emotional as it is a body change and will take time to process.  Crying and feeling a loss will be normal emotions and anger too.  There are support groups and many lovely women who will be able to share what helped them to feel better and adjust .  Hugs to you.

Hi there.

Hopeful Barb is totally right. I had a bilateral mastectomy without reconstruction in January, and I went through every emotional possible before surgery - sadness, anger, worry, grief for my breast, endless tears...

It is so much to process, but I definitely found a combination of talking to friends, family and the amazing breast team, with some reflective time alone (usually on a walk), helped my head space. 

I hope all goes well with your surgery. In my case, I found post surgery easier to handle than pre surgery...I think it was because I knew I'd done what needed to be done to get rid of the cancer! xx