Chemotherapy

Gosh, you've had a really tough time - welcome to this forum, there's great support here. I'm supporting my daughter who is your age and was diagnosed a year ago. She also had awful side effects with EC.  Now post two surgeries, a further year of chemo just started and 15 rounds of radiotherapy starting in a couple of weeks.

It's such a horrible disease and so challenging mentally and physically. I hope you have family and friends to support you. Keep posting, this forum is such a great support. Sending strength and a big hug. xx

I’m so sorry going through this. I’m also due to start a similar treatment in 2 weeks and side effects are scaring me. Cancer is just horrible especially at our age as we have young children. It’s horrible for anyone. I hope it gets easier for you. X

 Cherry2  thank you so much for replying and I'm sorry to hear your daughter is going through this too.  It's such a cruel disease isn't it.  I don't know why I'm at such a low point as I try my best to be positive.  I'm going to try and pick myself up again and carry on.  I have wonderful friends abd family but sometimes it hard to tell them how I really feel as I don't like to upset them.  Thank you again for your kind reply and I wish your daughter well with the rest of her treatment. X

 RKD  thank you for replying.  I hope my message hasn't made you worry about side effects- I hope for you that the side effects are minimal.  I think as my surgery was so sudden, I'd pushed all my feelings down and its only know I'm realising I should've allowed myself time to process everything.  I wish you well with your treatment and if you feel like it please let me know how you get on. X

Mine also happened very suddenly. Within a month from diagnosis which has included further scans ans biopsies I was booked for the mastectomy a week later. 

It's such a shock to the system isn't it.  How has your recovery after your mastectomy?.

It’s been ok so far. The wound is still not healed yet. I’m slowly getting my movement back in my arms but it’s still stiff and I feel some discomfort when I’m walking or using my arm. How did yours go? X

My recovery after the op was OK I had a seroma but the nurses drained it a couple of times so it wasn't too bad.  I still have numbness under my arm and just above the elbow but hopefully that might improve.  I'd I can just get my final 4 chemo over with - not saying I'm looking forward to 15 sessions of Radiotherapy but I'm think it's got to be easier than chemo

I also still feel very numb under the arm   It’s a horrible feeling when you touch it. I hope it comes back slowly. I think radiotherapy will be a lot easier than chemo. I hope your last 4 sessions go ok. 

I hear you. I was diagnosed in January also, had a mastectomy and lymph node clearance (11 out of 14) grade 3 IDC. Just had my 3rd round of EC and the. For 9 weeks of Paclitaxol, and although I know it’s happening and I know I’ll do it ( just like you) doesn’t mean I want too! Tired is not an accurate description, is it? 
I’m sorry that your side effects have been so harsh, I don’t know if this is any consolation but I spoke to my consultant the other day about the worry/fear of 9 weekly cycles when it takes me a good 8-10 days to feel more human on EC and she said a lot of people find pacitaxol so much easier- so I’m holding on to that. 

I 40 and although my babies are older at 16 and 19 (still my babies) I have the fear of making them more grown up than they should be.    I don’t have any words to make you feel better, but I’m hoping that if you read that I feel those feelings just like you, might offer some support.