Only had 2 out instead of 3 EC

I’m sorry that you have had this disappointment and that it is worrying you.

A similar thing happened to me. I experienced really severe side-effects to EC so had my dose reduced, but the oncologist was not happy to give me my last dose due to how it made me feel, even on the reduced dose. I explained that would like to have it, but she was not happy to give it to me, so I just had to trust her. it really floored me and felt like a big blow at the time, but she explained that all treatment is a balance between potential benefit and side effects, and there are other treatments that I can have. 
I still do have some residual disappointment and concern about not being able to have my last dose, but know I need to move on from this and put my energy into my treatment pathway. I do trust my oncologist. She explained that some people do not even have EC at all, for example, people with heart conditions. it sounds like this is the concern with you, so it’s really good to hear that they are taking care of your most important organ. I hope you can see it that way once you have got over the shock. 

Hedera thank you.  We’re very lucky to have such a good service with great people.  My oncologist is very good too and you’re right, we should trust the professionals. It’s funny isn’t it, initially I was devastated when I was told that I was going to need chemotherapy and now  upset that I can’t finish it!  I’m hoping that missing the last one won’t make a huge difference.

I like your approach.  I’m sure I will get over the shock and disappointment by tomorrow and continue to be as positive as I’ve been so far.  I hope everything goes well for you too. Thank you  

I think one of our greatest challenges is having to look positively upon all these horrible, unwanted, and worrying things which happened to us on a cancer treatment pathway. 
I was exactly like you in not wanting the chemo, but then devastated when I couldn’t have it!