Hi everyone.
im at the start of my journey. I found a lump at the beginning of july and was referred for the breast clinic within a month. After a mammogram, ultrasound and biopsy was completed the consultation was pretty sure it wasn’t a cyst , but still had to wait for 2 weeks for the results. Yesterday we reviewed confirmation it was a grade 3 lump but with no abnormal signs in the lymph glands. The type of cancer is the most common, basically hormone led, so I’m coming off my hrt that I started 5 months ago due to early perimenopause.
im 43 with a 9 year old child and a wonderfully supportive husband. We are planning on telling our daughter tomorrow which I am so conscious of due to her age and her also being such a wonderful empathetic young lady. She will feel this deeply.
I’m feeling so much fear at the moment. These last two weeks of waiting for results have tired me out so much, as I’ve put all my energy into remaining calm for my daughter and trying to have a fun normal summer holiday. Trying to act normal and taking joy in every day activities.
Being brave everyday for her is all I want to do. Being a role model and showing resilience, but I’m shaking all over inside.
we have a date for surgery now, mid September, though still waiting for the results of the HER2 protein which will change the plan if positive. Should be with us by Wednesday.
im just looking for women around my age going through or coming out of their journey. I feel like im in a dream world. Nothing is quite real for me at the moment. Like I’m sleepwalking or something.
I keep staring off into space and feel warm, shaky and not quite anchored to reality.
