Since my mastectomy surgery 4 weeks ago I've had an infection and necrotic tissue added to an already stressful journey and my wound still hasn't entirely healed. Now my oncotype results have come through, and although I was expecting to have chemo from the outset the fact that they came back with 60 something as a score which is obviously high. I'm just really annoyed that they even bothered with the test even though I would've had chemo had the test not existed. Its a stage 2 grade 3 51mm tumour and I just feel they gave me hope when they shouldn't have. Deep down I know its not intended that way and I may not have had to have chemo (or benefited from it as they put it) but it's just hit me so hard and even though I expected that result, I didnt too, or more likely want it, if you know what I mean. This was just phone call and I go in tomorrow for the whole rundown but yeah I'm totally feeling sorry myself and feel like I've suffered enough! Thanks for reading!
