Confused!!!

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I found a lump in my right breast a couple of weeks ago. I was referred to the breast clinic on 12/06/2023 and had mammograms, ultrasound and a biopsy. They took me straight upstairs to a private room where they said “ so sorry to tell you it’s cancer but the good news is that you’ve caught it early and from what we can see it hasn’t spread to your lymph nodes.”   I was then given the date of 22/06/2023 to come back for the biopsy results.  Got the biopsy results and they came back showing no sign of cancer! But they said they are not happy with that they saw on the ultrasound. I am now being told it may not be cancer and I need an MRI and ANOTHER biopsy, to then have to wait again for the results!!

As you can imagine this has caused me such anxiety as I went from thinking I had breast cancer to then thinking I’m ok ( due to the biopsy results) to now being an absolute mess again. I don’t know how I’m supposed to cop with the waiting again. All I do is cry ( I am a big baby and have major phobia of needles!). I’ve been off work as I was struggling to keep my emotions in and I work with children in a school so crying all the time is not good! 
sorry for the long post but was wondering if anyone else has had a similar experience to me. 

  • Hi Gemstar, I've been through that hell on earth 2 weeks ago and unfortunately my cancer diagnosis was confirmed. The waiting was unbearable, absolutely brutal! When I got my diagnosis I was in a shock. I was thinking it was a nightmare I wish I could wake up from! But it starts sinking in at some point... Now I am waiting for the additional tests which will show if the cancer has spread. My lymph nodes were clear on the ultrasound but this doesn't necessarily mean it hasn't spread so another 10 days of hell! I am trying to stay positive reading stories about people who have survived metastatic breast cancer for 10 or 15 or even  more years. I am also thinking about what my quality of life would be and how it would affect my family. It's terrible thoughts and it's never easy.Try to stay calm - even if it's bad news, please do not tthink ihat's the end of the road for you because it is not! Also, it might be a benign growth but doctors just want to be sure and double check. Sometimes pathologists request another biopsy sample just to be sure it is taken from the right place. Stay as calm and positive as you can, try to destract yourself somehow and know that so many people are going through this same nightmare even as we speak! A big hug! xx 

    1. Hello Gemstar,  one thing I learned about going down the breast cancer route is that there are many detours.  You just think that all is worked out and a plan is in place and oh oh another hiccup. Think it made me more resilient as I like to know everything and when things change I get apprehensive.  That didn’t benefit me as it wasted so much of my energy and time.  
      The waiting is a drain and I hope all the results you get are wonderful.  We are all here for you. 
      Barbara

    Barbara 

  • Hi   the waiting and the uncertainty are simply awful and many people find this very tough to deal with.  For me, keeping busy (which meant working) really helped as it was a good distraction. You might want to make use of the lovely team here at Macmillan and just give them a call to chat things though. They can be a brilliant support for us and the number is 0800 808 0000.  Best wishes 

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