Treatment plan and emotional state

First of all I am sorry you are going through this. It must be really tough, especially as a single parent of a 4 year old. The emotions you are experiencing will be familiar to most of us on this journey. I have just completed 24 weeks of chemo. I have aggressive TNBC and am now being investigated for potential spread onto my liver. All I have found I can do is try to live in the present. I had always thought things like mindfulness were ‘woo’ that wouldn’t work for me, however I did a workshop and was really surprised how much it helped. It was really a bundle of breathing techniques and strategies for letting go of your thoughts and coming back to the breathing. Counselling might also help. 

I’m so sorry you’re going through this, some of your story resonates with me as I have young children too (6 and 1 yrs old) but it must be tough for you doing it alone. 

I absolutely understand the emotions part too, it’s just a complete mix of anger this is happening to sad it’s happening to almost relief as it’s treatable. I’m not as far on my journey way as you are as I’ve not for my full treatment plan but I do know what you are feeling is totally normal. It’s so much to take in to get your mind to understand it’s happening & that’s bound to mess with your emotions. 

make sure you have a good support network around you & someone to lean on when you need to let those emotions out. Don’t hold in too much, you’re not alone, this is a great community not just for advice but for support & an ear when you need. 

Laura x

Thank you for your kind reply. I have noticed in the past that when I managed to stay focused on the present, especially on my child, and took everything as it came helped a lot navigating challenging situations. For me it becomes difficult and unbearable when I let myself caught in the thoughts of the past and the fears of the future. I am grateful for a lot in my life, but to just be in the moment it's been always hard to do. I think that you are right. This is a good moment to start learning mindfulness. I am waiting for counseling, as well, to try and sort other issues. 

I hope that you are going to have good news about the investigation and find the power to go through everything that comes your way. 

Thank you for your kind reply, Laura. It does feel too much. I would just like for the time to stop for a while so I could be able to catch up. 

I am quite of a loner and finding myself in this situation made me realize that I do need a support group. I don't have family and friends close by and  I cannot do everything by myself. I have managed to get a little support with my child and covered the eventuality of an emergency. I feel that talking with people going through the same things or similar enough to understand is something that I need, that's why I decided to join this group.