Feel so deflated!

Hi Halley

Sorry to hear that you are feeling deflated after your last chemo session.  It's not unusual to feel how you are feeling particularly after being told that you are at a high risk of reoccurrence , not what you want to hear after just finishing chemo and having surgery to remove your affected breast.

Wishing you the best of luck with your radiotherapy and further treatment.

Best wishes

Daisy53

Hi Hailey 

It is strange that your emotions don't react how you expect . Your treatment sounds similar but I had x 15 radiotherapy. While you are on your treatment plan you sort of feel focused. Then when the end comes you feel lost and I still feel vulnerable now. Try not to focus on the high recurrence words as you have and will continue to hit this with everything. So give yourself a hug . I have had my first mamagram today after treatment and am scared of results. I guess it never fully goes away . Lots of love x

Thank you! I meant to say I had a previous pet ct scan which confirmed I was cancer free so my treatment was adjuvant but my emotions are all over the place, feel  like I’ve gone through so much to get rid of this horrible thing and it could still be lurking round the corner, is it normal to feel like this??  So many what ifs at the moment, maybe it will just take time to accept what I’ve gone through and in time move on and stop living in fear x

Thank you! Think I will have a nice bath, have a bloody good sob then hope I feel better x

What a bummer Halley.  I can understand that totally.   I thought I'd be cockahoop after chemo but I felt flat.  I know I wanted it to end because it was vile but it left me with so many questions and mixed emotions.   You are not alone on this 

Thank you ️

It's perfectly normal to have your emotions all over the place.  I know I felt flat after my chemo finished even though I expected to feel delighted.x

Thank you x

I know exactly what you mean, I had lumpectomy,  full node clearence, 6 months chemo and 15 x radiotherapy.  I think I had kindof worked it out that I would be fairly high risk as I was stage 3.  I am on anastrozle and awaiting to start abemaciclib very soon. the amount of tablets I am now taking a day is ridiculous,  as I take 9 a day of gabapentin to ease hot flushes caused by anastrozle,  and what with the other tablets it will be around 15. 

yes it's hard to realise the last chemo is just the start of something else but we have to remember this is all to give us the bestest chance of staying cancer free.

I did a bit of research and the abemaciclib isn't cheap so I guess we should be grateful to be offered it. 

I am suffering all sorts of side effects such as joint pains but try to keep telling myself why I am taking them! 

please be PROUD of yourself to have gone through all this treatment and hopefully nowhere near as many trips to hospitals, apps etc, even they will continue for a while yet xxx

Thank you, I’ve just had a good talk with myself and tried to put things into perspective, I was diagnosed with breast cancer, I had various treatments and now the cancer has gone,confirmed,  I need to take medication to help keep at bay, modern medicine is amazing nowadays, I suppose it’s the same for people who have had heart attacks/disease, they  will always live in fear of having another, or to be be blunt I could get hit by a bus tomorrow! Think it just was a massive mix of emotions that hit me today, thank you all for your kind words & thoughts xxx