**DECEMBER 2021 - MARCH 2022 BREAST CANCER CHEMO**

Hi Claud

Sorry to hear that you had a rough night yesterday. 

You’re certainly not failing as a Mum. It’s not easy when you are going through what you are going through at the moment, things though it mayn’t fell like it at the moment will get better.

Glad to hear that you aren’t having any problems with the port.

Mind yourself.

Daisy53

Hi everyone

Managed to force myself out to the garden centre and a dog walk today. The chemo has really laid me low this week. Really struggled with it. Mood low but also zero energy. I'm even struggling to get upstairs! Oh well onwards and upwards. I have another session on Monday and although I probably know what to expect I'm so not looking forward to it. Its the feeling of being useless. I just want to be normal for my son. I dont like not being there for him. I'm ony 52 but I feel like an old woman. 

Sorry Claud272 that the portacath is taking some getting used to. Im meeting with the person who will put it in on Wednesday to discuss it going in on the side away from the cancer. I'm in 2 minds about it because I don't want anymore discomfort.

I'm sure you aren't failing as a mum.  It must be so difficult for our kids to know a parent is poorly. They have to find an outlet for their fears and that may involve some playing up. It will pass. You will be back to normal again. Tasting and experiencing and being present in your life. For sure. 

Night all xx

After a week of doing very little I've just got back from a 5km walk, we walked  along the canal so flat and not too hard. You do feel so much better when you've exercised don't you.

We're going out for lunch and are going to walk there too, it's only about 20 minutes down the road, it's such a beautiful day it seems crazy to drive. 

Definite pattern emerging with the weekly paclitaxel 

Wed - treatment day and feel fine but no sleep

Thur - steroid super power, but no sleep

Fri - am feel ok, pm begin to flag, no sleep 

Sat - no energy and feel rubbish - sleep like a log

Mon- Wed - feel fine. - sleep well.

Just when I'm getting used to it I've got to stop  I really don't know how I'm going to be on my last chemo day, I suspect there may be tears.

Hi JAC,it's brilliant you're coming to an end,well done x.

I have my EC on a Thursday and this time was ok that evening,not bad in the Friday either,I find it's the Saturday I feel rubbish!I'm a bit slow today at getting going but will go for a walk later too x.

On my first session someone rang the bell to mark end of treatment,it was quite emotional and I didn't even know them lol.

Enjoy your lunch X(this sun can certainly make a difference in the way we feel, fingers crossed it is here to stay x

Fh 

Totally feel yr pain, just had butternut squash soup n walnuts. Another of my strange combo lol

Whinge away lol that would be us as the main stars for that show of same title lol

Keep smiling. The big D today hitting me hard...I so blinking hate this!! 

C x

Thank you daisy xxx

Hope the sunshine does help pick up moods!! So lush. Took myself out for a walk as was feeling sorry for myself n unloved ...

Cx

Sorry fh u are struggling, certainly aren't alone. We all want to be present for our loved ones but just rather challenging right now isn't it? I have resort to no normality till treatment is finished. I can't bear to look at myself in the mirror...I think for me its the emotional side i battle with more than anything else. 

Me too force myself out for walks, that is the sane part lol

I do hope things will improve after some talking to the child/teenager! Its hard..tq for all your encouragement, at times I do feel like I have lost the plot! 

Have a nice Sunday lovely ladies xxx rber one day at a time....xxx

On the sofa with the dog. Managed to wipe down the kitchen and iron uniform for the week. And that is me. Need to do a dreaded packed lunch for tomorrow- goodness I hate doing packed lunched. Luckily I only do the first one and then MIL who lives with you does the rest. 

Feeling really pooped though. 

Well done Jacala for your 5k walk. You must have been out early this morning. We'll done for approaching your last chemo - when will that be? Hope you had a lovely lunch. 

Claud272 butternut squash and walnuts sounds nutritious. Strange but since I've been on chemo I'm actually craving healthy stuff. The bad stuff doesn't taste good. Onion rings and caramelised humous has zero taste. Whereas a bowl of greek yogurt with apple and banana seems like the way forward for breakfast! Had a mcdonalds yesterday and usually I would relish it but I really struggled to eat it yesterday. 

Claud was it you that had pustules? I seem to have an outbreak of spots on my left breast. Really odd. 

Hope you managed to get out Amimal24

The afternoons are getting lighter - yay!

Xx

That is good, keep up with the nutrition. That is my only saviour thinking I can help my body along...vanilla yogurt and fruit brekkie for me too and then some fibre too.

Yup me with me pustules, so frus that the onco pharmacist won't give me steroid creams. Mine was all over the face....like I need to look more horrible..duh! Put some aloe vera on it if you have got some, it does go but just very slowly! Make sure they're not rash like or swollen.

C x

I'm having my final EC treatment on Thursday, then it's onto Docetaxel.  Has anyone else had this treatment and what was it like compared to EC. After I have EC I am in bed for a week  so tired nauseous and no appetite.  

Claude your doing well, don't knock yourself about parenting, just have a wee chat with your kids and tell them how your feeling. And ring the school ,explain  how things are for you at home atm.   

I have 2 older kids 23 and 21 then a 7 year old . 7 year old is a live wire and I've had to explain that there's days I'm very tired and need rest. I don't feel like I'm being the mum I should at the minute it , I do know I need to get through this treatment.  And when we do we'll be back to being the parents we want to be again and put this behind us, (hopefully)

Xx take care everyone