Try to think of the testing as a way of giving you that future. If I'm honest I hated everything, and was very anxious, but the medics need to see what's going on with as much clarity as possible or they can't give you a better future. CT scan doesn't take very long at all and is quiet. Promise yourself a treat afterwards - that's what I used to do to get me there, then after I never bothered with the treat as wanted just to come home. Like you, I have a too wild imagination. The thought of the results, yes that's scary (which I why I left that out) but you do have to face whatever it might be, good or bad, and you're already facing up to chemo very well, considering what it all is. It's just a little step but a vital step in your cancer puzzle.
Good point V. Facing harsh reality is difficult but together we get each other through this. You're right the medics need all the info to provide the best care for you, hold on to that? Again BC is so treatable...don't think it's a be all end all...our minds are so powerful and its all consuming. I know each day when I have wobbles I have to consciously bring myself back in the light. Please know that we will keep helping each other every step of the way...
Slept OK yday, proud of myself just with little things like cooking food, washing myself, only took minimal painkillers, broken sleep at 3am which isn't that bad. Prob coz napping in the day.
Some of you are having big days today, good luck ladies...take it step by step...sending lots of positive and healing vibes to you sweeties xxx
Hi, just had my breakfast, going to take my anti sickness tablet in a couple of hours then off for my treatment. Hope everyone is okay, and hope those with appointments they go smoothly. Wishing you all a good day, love and hugs xxxx
Thank you sweetie, I just want to move forward with my treatment, each treatment is a step nearer finishing my treatment and moving forward with my life. What is next for you claud xxx
I got a small procedure on the other side in 2 weeks...couple of check ups next week. I will know more then. If honest I am scared about the pathology report but I need to put rest and recuperate as top priority right now. And coming to terms with mastectomy. I still dare not look at myself. If I think about it I will cry so much. So I don't let myself go there. New me, keep telling myself!!
Morning all . Hope you are all doing ok. I have crashed now day 4 after chemo. Going to try to chill and go with it this time , I know it’s going to be a rough few days . Not going to put pressure on to keep normal meal times just going eat little when I can . Not sure if I will be able to drive to CT tomorrow.
