I think I’m going into meltdown

Hi I was called back after my second mammogram in May, so had assessment on 16th June 9mm lump, it turned out to be grade 1 ductal carcinoma oestrogen positive HER2 negative, but the breast care nurse was great she kept telling me it’s small it’s treatable we’ve found it early, I did have a bit of a meltdown when I was told the diagnosis the next week but the nurses words were still going around my head “it’s small, it’s treatable”, so even if you do have bad news it is treatable and you’ll be ok, they’ve caught it early. I had my operation last Friday just over 5 weeks from my assessment at the breast centre. 

Sending you positive thoughts 

Big hugs

Diane

Thanks for replying Diane. That’s what the breast care nurse told me. I hope you’re doing ok after your surgery. It doesn’t seem to king to wait between being assessed and your IP so if it is bad news for me I hope it’s as quick. 
I’m going to try your mantra of it’s small it’s treatable. 
the waiting is just wearing me out. 
Big hugs 

Hi Imarah

So sorry to hear you are in this situation.  I think we've all been through this 'waiting' period and it's cetainly the most difficult part of the journey.  It's natural to worry, of course.  Once  you know your treatment plan, you'll have something more 'tangible' to focus on

The best way to help you get through the waiting time is to keep your mind busy with other stuff, if you can.  Once you know more details, and plan, then I found talking about it to friends/family (as you feel appropriate) helped me.  I found such a lot of support there. 

You will find the Breast care team to be helpful.  Ask whatever questions you feel you need to ask.  They will be there for you all along your journey.

There is light at the end of the tunnel, in fact.  Just that you can't see 'round the corner' yet

Ask questions on here too.  Most will understand what you're going through at the time. If it helps, I've had breast cancer 9 yrs ago (right side) and at the beginning of this year, had breast cancer again on the other side (left side). 

You'll get there.  It's all do-able

Thanks for the advice. I just wish I knew but add you say Once I do and I know what’s going to happen I’m hoping I’ll be able to focus. 
sorry to hear that you’ve got to go through everything again. Hope all goes well xx

I also have another mantra for when feeling low on confidence, and I was, after initially feeling very good, due to fainting after my op and not wanting to venture out of bed and downstairs in case I fainted again. It is "I can do this !!." I had a small bleed which no-one knew for a while, so that mantra was a short term one, but would apply.

Good luck for tomorrow Venicelagoon. I’m going to definitely try to keep positive. And you’re right with the I can do this. Roll on Wednesday So I know what the facts are. I didn’t think I’d get any response to my post. This group is brilliant. Thank you x

Hi, I know how you feel I'm going through simular although I now know that I have cancer in both breasts which they tell me is just unfortunate bloody  right its unfortunate ! Anyway to cut a long story short I'm having  surgery and all that stuff but the million dollar question I had for my surgeon was " can you save my life'? And he said yes so I cried ( I think I will do lots of that over the next month) I find that when I go to the hospital they are so reassuring that I come out on cloud nine . But it never lasts I go from high as a kite to low and anxious. I have realised that I need to go through all these emotions its part of the healing process. I do feel better now I have a surgery date 2/8/21 I'm just spending all my time now trying to dodge covid so that my surgery isn't delayed . Take care thinking about you .

Welcome. We all agreed on various posts that the waiting game is the worst but keeping yourself occupied is key. Someone suggested to me to write things down so its out your head. You can't change results  (a bit like exam results day at school) so try not to waste time and energy worrying. Believe me been there. Do you have any hobbies, go for a walk etc. Click my name to read profile. Things can move fast upon diagnosis and you will be assigned a breast care nurse and most hospitals have a team so even if your nurse is not available then someone can help. Macmillan site is good but only read if you need to. My advice is not Google stuff as it won't help. Keep going. Let us know how you get on. I start radiotherapy soon . Just take one day at a time x

Sorry to hear what you’re going through   
I think everyone in here is so brave it makes me feel like a bit of a fraud when I don’t even know the diagnosis yet. I hope so goes eek with your surgery. Its so so scary x

I read your profile and it seems like it’s all happened really fast for you. 
I’ve tried really hard not to Google but have failed miserably on a couple of occasions. 
going to bed tonight I am thinking another day closer to knowing and that’s what I want, to know. Taking your advice and going for a walk tomorrow weather permitting!! Xx