Driving myself crazy

Waiting is so hard isn't it? I am coming out the other end of treatment now and I still feel like I have had all this treatment for something that wasn't making me feel unwell or that I was aware of at all before being tested. It seems strange to have all this stuff happen for something that was having no impact on my life! 

Are you taking someone with you on the 5th March? I had my husband with me and once I had been told it was cancer I wasn't 100% sure I was taking everything else in. When they meet you they will hit you with the likely treatment plan and give you time to ask questions. The best thing about that appointment was meeting my breast cancer nurse from Macmillon who spent a lot of time going through the mental and emotional impact of the diagnosis. She also helped me with how to tell my son about what was going on. 

It seemed to move very fast after that first confirmation appointment so be prepared for it to kind of take over your life a little bit. Having my husband and child getting on with life really helped with keeping me from obsessing over the cancer and what was happening. This website was also so useful with gauging whether what I was going through was normal or not. I suppose that's my roundabout way of saying that you are not alone and that people are super supportive. Tell them what's going on. 

Good luck on the 5th and keep on visiting us in here. 

H

Hello H, thanks for your reply. I hope you’re doing ok.

my husband passed away a short while ago, I have a friend coming with me on 5th. I’m glad you said things seemed to move fast as the waiting is indeed hard.

take care

Hi,

this was my daughter a year ago. She found a little lump when breastfeeding went to doctors then wham all happened so fast chemo surgery radiation then immune therapy. She has just had the all clear but what a aviary year we have had  please try to stay strong and positive eat well drink plenty and there is so so much support out there i wish you all the very best. Our mantra was o wards and upwards we can do this

As soo. As there is a plan in place and they decide on a pathway it goes very fast 

Hi Barley, so glad your daughter has the all clear, what a scary time. Thank you for your kind words

It is a horrible time, I was in your place in December, I have since had a mastectomy and tomorrow get my post op results. They will then confirm post op which treatment is needed. The anxiety at the beginning was so tough, once I had ct scan and op then things settled a bit. Take each day as it comes and remember breast cancer treatment is v good nowadays and c successful. I had a mastectomy and full node clearance 4 weeks ago and I wasn’t in much pain. Take care and please phone Macmillan, bcn or breast cancer now support line x

Hi Rose Pink

The panicky feeling, chest tightness, loss of appetite and not sleeping are all your stress responses being triggered. Some people cry a lot, others experience what you are having. I'm like you.

The wait is awful. You try and keep busy but your mind continually drifts to this. All I can say is keep busy.

I'm only a few weeks ahead of you. Hopefully I will have a treatment plan next week with some kind of action the following week, but everything is up in the air until my next appointment. 

Take someone with you. It will help, as you don't take everything in. It also helps to have someone to keep you company when are in the waiting room.

I'm happy to keep you company on here if you need it  

Hi Skj01, yes you’re right, I’ve not cried at all, just panicked. I’d love to keep you company too if I can, thank you x

My daughter kept it all in because she did not want to worry me as if I was not worried enough  i know she talked to her cancer buddy so she had a outlet the thing is me and m6 daughter are so much closer now and we def look at life differently. When she was resting but bored wevstsrted selling things on vented it kept her busy and gave her something else to think about I would run around postin* the stuff she would do the admin  it just gave us an outlet as I was with her all the time   All money went in our Disney pot