Hi,
I've recently been diagnosed with Grade 3, Invasive Ductal Carcinoma, 2 growths, 3.8cm in total. I have surgery next week for mastectomy of left breast and reconstruction using my stomach tissue. Scan today of stomach tissue, lymph node dye appt day before surgery.
I am a single mum of two older kids, who haven't said much or shown much emotion which worries me. I think when i go in next week it might hit them them, as right now i look fit and healthy.
I feel like i'm on an emotional rollercoaster and now things are happening its all becoming very real, as opposed to just getting on with the day to day, until you get a call/appt letter that brings reality to the surface.
I'm trying to make sure everythings sorted for xmas, as i know i'm not going to be fit for much, so my kids still have some sort of xmas. But i'm finding it hard, like the world is going on around me and i'm trying to stay afloat and function as normal. I'm hardly sleeping, i think this is all a natural reaction though, i hope 
I think i'm so worried about my kids and my family, during and post surgery and what this is doing to them, nevrrmind me.
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I wanted the surgery asap and it gone but, now its all happening and i feel i am not coping aswell as i need to be. I can't talk about it or have anyone ask me how i am without getting emotional, i can't control it 
Surgery wise, i think i'm organised and as ready as i'm ever going to be 
Xmas ready, not so much, work in progress, with time running out 
Hi Masca41
Welcome to the forum and I am sorry to hear that you have been diagnosed with breast cancer and that you need a mastectomy. What you are feeling is perfectly natural. Maybe you could get your kid to help with the Xmas preparation which might help them as well as you.
Wishing you the best of luck with your surgery.
Best wishes
Daisy53
Hi Daisy53,
I think i'm just about organised for xmas now, few more wee things. Main thing now is to get rid off the cold i've got before surgery day, don't want them cancelling it.
