Hi there, I'm new here.
I have to Say, I was stunned. I had a recall back after a mammogram. I wasn't scared as I've had this a couple of times before. I have very dense, lumpy breast tissue and have had lumps and bumps checked out since my middle 20's. As far as I was concerned, I was going for another mammogram. That was Aug this Yr. When I got to the hospital, I knew. Because for starters they didn't leave me in the waiting room. I went to the cosy room with big comfy couches and tea and coffee making facilities. I had a breast nurse come speak to me and then had the mammogram, ultrasound, biopsies and went home. My results appt was 3 days later. I couldn't speak. I had 2 separate lumps that I'd never felt or noticed. Both were cancerous. 11 days later I had a full mastectomy on the left. It was a whirlwind time. But then I was left for 4 long weeks, waiting on full results.no-one contacted me at all. That was my worst time. I felt so abandoned. I've left my results letter in my bio. It's mostly double dutch to me. But I am not doing chemo, I'm going to have radio which starts 4 Dec. I want my life back. I'm sick of being 'sick' when I feel completely fine. Sorry for the long post, I just thought I'd get it all out I 1 go
Hi Christina
i understand completely how you feel. I’m now 5 months post surgery and over 3 months post rads. I ask myself daily ‘why me?’. I lost my mum in December last year after 12 years of caring for her - she had dementia. I went on holiday in March (having gone through arranging her funeral and house sale) and felt for the first time, no guilt. But during that holiday I had some bleeding from a nipple. Went to the doctor on the day I returned then suddenly I’m on the cancer hamster wheel. I’ve had all my treatment but still recovering - painful and swollen under arm and across chest. I really just want to feel normal again - will it ever happen?
It's horrible bethS. I lost my mum in April 2020 to breast cancer but it never crossed my mind that I'd get it too. I want to go back to work, I want to be happy and bouncy and normal. Instead I'm a depressed wee heap sitting at home scared to face the world. All my doctors have been great, I was scheduled for a hip replacement on 2 Oct but obviously that was put on hold. So now my orthopedic surgeon is conversing with the oncology team to find a time which suits best and won't interfere with treatments. All of a sudden I feel old and a burden on the people I care for.
Try not to let it get you down too much. I know the feeling of growing old overnight. It’s your turn to be cared for. One day you’ll be back to your old self, it’s just a matter of patience. Lots of hugs coming your way. Xxx
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