Feeling so emotional all of a sudden!

i suggest to just have the big cry, and release the anxiety you have been holding at bay for so long.

sometimes we have to allow ourselves to just let it go. i have been hanging in too, but this second round took me out some and i find when i over compensate by holding my shit together it starts to leak out,. I had three days of just tearing up over not much, so i just let the tears fall and appreciate some of the relief of letting go of it for the moment.

you have been holding your boots up for so long its ok to feel drained, and  dont beat yourself for being emotional,  you have done a big hard part and its now a change in routine, a shake up, and new horizons beckon. i do recommend a nice back massage if you can find one. it helped me 

try to find some something gives you peace, I sat in the garden listening to birds in the sun for an hour. just focusing on the wind and animals. 

Hi Googler

Welcome to the forum and sorry to hear tht you have been diagnosed with breast cancer and that you are struggling at the moment. What you are feeling is perfectly natural. If you have a Maggie’s or another near you why not pop in for a chat and a cup of tea. They can arrange counselling for you if you wish.

Wishinf you the best of luck with whatever comes next for you.

Best wishes

Daisy53

Hi Googler , lovely messages already, just wanted to add a big hug from me. You’ve been through such a lot of treatments and keeping it together all this time, maybe you’ve reached coping saturation point. You may have seen this article before, sorry if it’s ‘old news’, but I’ve found it useful to return to over the years. I’ll hopefully post the link, otherwise you can Google it - Peter Harvey, When treatment finishes’ (or similar). I’m guessing you’re not actually finished by a long chalk but maybe the main ‘dramatic’ treatments are done? Anyway here it is…..

www.workingwithcancer.co.uk/.../After-the-treatment-finishes-then-what.pdf

My big sanity saver is walking but I’m fortunate to have been able to retire early  as I struggled hugely going back to work and never managed full time. And would echo the suggestion of counselling if it’s available. 
Sending love and a big virtual hug, HFxx 

Thank you for sharing this. I have just read it for the first time through tears.  I have had my first ‘all clear’ mammogram but the same week my sister was diagnosed. She has had a mastectomy and is due to start her chemo next week. I feel like I’m coping worse than her and this article was the first thing I’ve seen that made me recognise I’m not going mad thank you. 

Hi GotThis , yeah it’s a difficult read but good at the same time. Makes such good sense and affirms so many feelings. I always have a bit of a weep when I reread it, but tears can be therapeutic (which is why I keep my little Hopi quote in my ‘signature’ here). Glad you’ve got through your first annual mammogram but so sorry to hear about your sister. Bl**** cancer…. Xxx