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Hi Sam

I just about at the end of my treatment - 7 radiation treatments to go. I had chemo then surgery and I'm already feeling exactly like you. I don't know how I'm ever going to trust my body again and while I'll forever be grateful to hear the words no evidence of disease I've no idea how to pick up the pieces from the last 7 months.

I've been advised to do the moving on course with Breast Cancer Now and will sign up to that once radiation is done. I'm also reading The Cancer Surviors Campanion - which has been good so far but I'm still on the first chapter.

My friends and family have all said they can't wait for things to get back to normal and for me to be my old self again and I don't know how to tell them that I don't think that's going to happen.

It's almost easier when you have treatment - your in the hands of the professionals and don't have time to think about what you've been through and once it's done the silence is deafening - I hope that makes sense

xx

I know how you feel. I'm afraid that I won't ever be the old me and this is the new me. I did the Moving Forward course but think I did it a bit early after I finished treatment. You can do it again if you need to. It was a good course but I would have preferred a face to face meeting at some point which wasn't up and running. I did it last September.  I think its very hard going to get back to normality on top of the lifting of covid restrictions so I'm just doing little things I enjoy and see how I go x