Scared newbie

Hi, sorry to hear your news and that you've found yourself in this situation. I was diagnosed with triple negative bc in November last year, everything seemed to go quite quick from getting results to starting chemo on Xmas eve. 

I too felt the same as you, feeling scared, anxious. You'll have a clearer picture when you get proper biopsy results and then you'll know what sort of treatment plan you'll be put on. Aww its natural to be scared, it's facing the unknown. I found this group really helpful in getting advice knowing there's others out there facing the same fears. 

And yes let's kick cancer's arse

Massive hugs to you 

Love S xx

I’m so sorry I didn’t reply to your lovely message S. I am in free fall panic. I need the anchor of some reassurance of my results to stop me tailspinning. I phoned the breast care nurse yesterday. She told me the tumour is around 2cm but obviously that’s only part of the picture. Every twinge and pain in my body is stressing me. I’m very anxious and just cannot help it. I’m dreading my results. 
I really hope you are doing well with your treatment. I really do wish you all the best and hope you are doing well. 
Sending love and hugs 

S 

Aww bless you.  Once you get all the results back of biopsies, scans etc you will be in a clearer picture. The oncologist team and nurses are wonderful and they know what is best to treat your cancer. Any questions you have no matter how silly you think they are just ask your team that's what they there for. 

I'm halfway through my chemo treatment, it's hard but I try to keep strong and think there is light at the end of the tunnel. 

Stay strong and wish you the very best. Many hugs Xx

Kathryn

I’m so grateful you took the time to reply and tell me your story. My goodness you really have been to hell and back but your attitude is inspirational and brings me hope and comfort.
I’m still waiting for news from the hospital. It’s been 9 days now and my anxiety ramps up with each passing day. The silence is debilitating. Each waking moment is consumed by dreadful thoughts. I have moments of calm and clarity but on the whole I really am struggling. I can’t cope with not knowing but it’s the same for everyone on this journey xx

Sarah xx

Hi del I was just like you and the breast team are fantastic of answering any questions you may have and also they are on had on you call them also I had questions of is it growing while im waittingor surgery I had also anxiety about sick pay and work wise McMillan also helped me with this and I was able to visit the centre to discuss my feeling and thought I even had a indian head massage whi helped me before I had my surgery  at the western park center they was all lovely I am now still a bit anxious about my appointment tomorrow if they managed to remove all my cancer and the radiotherapy im going to have try not to be scared Nd ask questions and thoughts u have its important x

Xxx

You’re echoing everything I’m thinking! I do remember asking the breast nurse last week at the biopsy appointment if it could spread whilst I’m waiting for results. Also, (don’t laugh!!) I’m thinking that they’ve just punched a big hole in the tumour, will it all come leaking out?!! I know I’m being irrational but in the absence of constant reassurance and knowing what’s coming, I think daft thoughts. The nurse said it wouldn’t spread but I just cannot help but stress about the time it’s taking. It’s now six weeks since I saw my GP and I don’t have a firm diagnosis of what’s going on inside me or what my treatment will be and I’m just so so scared 

Thankyou so much for your kind help and reply xx

Sarah xx

I also had that biopsy fear…like it would ‘anger it’ and allow cells to detach. I think we all go through these thoughts. X