Have I just really had breast cancer

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I was diagnosed early November 

A week after my diagnosis my dad past away suddenly absolutely adored my dad he was my hero 

A week after my dad past I had my surgery 

I feel very lucky it was only stage 2 and wasn't in the lymph nodes only have to have radiotherapy and hormone therapy 

I start radiotherapy on the 17th 

I feel like I have blocked this part of my life out (the cancer part) i don't remember anything that has happened to me only time I remember is when I see the scares in the mirror 

Please could anyone tell me if this is normal? 

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    I have had the exact same experience as you except my beloved dad passed away beginning of January, we had two weeks with him from his bowel cancer diagnosis. I went from my appointments to sit with him in hospital still sore from having lymph nodes removed. It was totally overwhelming and surreal. I am on a waiting list for cancer counselling so I’m hoping I can have some space to process what I have been through myself. Big hug to you and I really do know how you are thinking and feeling X

  • Hi Belfifi,

    So sorry for your loss  I really do know how your feeling 

    Do you think this will hit us months down the line ? 

    Thats the part that frightens me X

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Shellac

    Thank you, ya that’s my worry too but am hoping the counselling will start sooner than later. I start radiotherapy on the 15th. Hope yours goes well and you are coping with your loss xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Also it’s is all a blur for me too, the whole few weeks of diagnosis etc. xx

  • Do you think that's normal? Or do you think it will hit us like a train in the months ahead 

    Please let me know how you get on and if you think the counselling helps 

    Take care and good look for next Tuesday sending you a big hug x

  • Hello im so sorry you had to go through this. I finished treatment in December for triple negative breast cancer and during my whole treatment my sister found out her cancer had come back and spread, she passed away in july and i had my mastectomy 2 weeks after she passed away. We were incredibly close it is so so hard. I am having some counselling from maggies as like you i cant remember any of my treament really or surgery, its like it wasnt happening to me. I just focused on my sis the whole time and being with her in her last few weeks when she found out nothing else could be done. So surreal... 

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    FormerMember in reply to MummyBear80

    Hi there, oh goodness my thoughts are with you - losing your sister is so hard. What a terrible time for you, yes one’s own treatment seems to pale into insignificance even tho it is major because I think we go into support mode. I hope the counselling is helping you and you are recovering well yourself xx

  • Thank you so much for your kind words, my physical recovery is going well so far, I'm starting to do more exercise again and eat better, trying to take care of my body well now. Counselling is helping and am so thankful that I have all this support and people who truly understand xxx I hope you are doing ok too.