Newly diagnosed and feeling lost

Hi. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I have the same thoughts with spread and every ache and pain is noted. I have to keep reminding myself I am menopausal too! We WILL get through this. Just want it out ASAP x 

The waiting is the worse bit for me,  was diagnosed 2nd October but have had to wait for surgery date as I am on blood thinners and the surgeon wanted confirmation that it would be safe to stop them for surgery,  I have appointment on Friday for surgery planning so will hopefully have a date then,  just want it done now.  I have two adult children,  one is abroad and so far have decided not to tell anyone if I can get  away with it till after the op., Apart from my husband and my boss who also did not bother replying and I had to email him two days later to check he even got my email !

The people I had most difficulty telling were my dad (who is 90 and frail) and a niece who is fragile having lost a relative recently. I waited until I had some facts from biopsies to share and put a positive spin on it. But with my 4 children (all in their 20s) I was quite open as (because of the kinds of people they are) I realised they would feel hurt if they discovered that I had hidden things from them. Some people, like my mother in law, didn't understand my approach about telling people "I don't see it's any of their concern".  I explained to her that I needed to tell people in the family so they would understand why I wasn't going to go to a nephew's wedding, to tell people at work (I work in the NHS) so they knew in advance why I was going to have to hand over my caseload, and friends so they could support me like I would want to support them. 

I've blogged about the reactions of people to my news (and other experiences following my diagnosis) on this site if you want to read more

 community.macmillan.org.uk/.../cancer-and-cakes

Best wishes with your op and I hope it’s soon x 

Im reading your blog now. Thank you