Recently diagnosed

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Hi,

Where to start without sounding dramatic but boy I’m scared!  Just over a week ago I was called back for a second mammogram screening, I was in complete shock when I was told I have breast cancer. I am 51 years old, there is no history of cancer in my family so I though I would be ‘ok’. The cancer is quite small, less than 2cm I believe, in my left breast and not spread to the lymph nodes (I think) so that’s positive, right?

I have an appointment next Wednesday to discuss the biopsy results and treatment plan, I’m trying to just get my head round this and what my options are and of course, what’s best for me? I’ve read some blogs on here and aware that there are many people in much worse circumstances than me so please don’t think I’m moaning or feeling sorry for myself, I’m not. It’s hard to speak to family, it was even harder to tell them about this, I hate seeing my mother, children, my husband and siblings sad, worried, upset so I keep upbeat but inside I’m so so scared!

Has anyone chosen a mastectomy over breast conserving? I just want this out of me but how do you cope with the emotional turmoil of either losing a breast or ending up with a different breast?

At the moment and hopefully coincidentally I have high ALT so have to have another liver function test, no symptoms of liver damage, I don’t drink alcohol and lead a fairly fit and active life. I’m praying the ALT levels have gone down (if that even happens?) and that it’s not connected to the breast cancer but a little nag in my head keeps me awake at night wondering, worrying.

I hope everyone else is doing ok... I’m not sure what else to say so rather than prattle on...

Take care and keep smiling.

Karen xx

  • Hi Karen, you have every right to feel sorry for yourself, it is very very scary. I was called back for another mammogram 3 weeks ago and had a biopsy and a scan the same day. I was told then they were 99% positive, it is one hell of a shock, it’s devastating, like you there is no cancer if any kind in my family. I’m 54 I still can’t  believe this is happening, I feel like I’m being carried along and my future has now changed completely.

    I have a date for surgery, it’s in 2 weeks and then 8 weeks after that I’ll have radiotherapy. The surgeon gave me the option of lumpectomy or mastectomy, I asked which would she choose, she said lumpectomy it’s only 12mm and grade 1, so they caught it early.

    With regards to your liver function test, I have regular tests as I take medication, my ALT level was raised in Feb 2020 but I had another blood test the month later and it was normal. I asked my gastroenterologist about it and he said your ALT level goes up and down all the time, so hopefully it will be normal with your next test.

    There are lots of inspiring posts on here and I’ve found it very helpful to read them, it’s made me feel calmer knowing that I’m not alone and that it’s completely normal to feel this way.

    Big hugs

    Diane xx

  • Hi Karen. My cancer was 1cm, hormone positive and I chose lumpectomy and bilateral mammoplasty. I too could only think I want this out of me but I was also aware that I’d find adjusting to mastectomy very difficult. I’m sure I made the right decision (for me) and wish you all the very best which ever decision you make.

  • Hi Diane

    Thank you for your response and reassurances, that’s really helpful and appreciated.

    I am sorry to hear about your own journey but good to hear you are being positive and that your cancer is an early stage. 

    I didn’t know ALT levels can go up and down so that’s particularly helpful, thank you.

    The very best for your surgery and treatment plan, do let me know how you progress.

    Best wishes

    Karen xxx

  • Hello

    Thank you got your response and sharing your story. Can I ask, what is a bilateral mammoplasty? 
    Best wishes

    Karen xx

  • Hi Karen. I was given 3 options : lumpectomy (leave a dent where lump was), lumpectomy and reconstruction to remove dent where lump was or lumpectomy and bilateral mammoplasty - surgery also on other breast so they look the same. I wanted to look as normal as poss so went for that. If you google it says for women with “ponderous breasts” but mine were certainly not that! I was a 34 C. Scarring has pretty much faded (op in Jan) and really pleased with the result. Yes, it’s additional surgery but I felt the long term gain was worth it x

  • Hello

    Thank you, that's really useful to know, I wasn’t aware of the options so gaining an understanding is really helpful.

    All the best x