Feeling anxious

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Hi all,

I'm 37 and was diagnosed with breast cancer in april. My mum was diagnosed at 38 and her mum in her early 40s so i always knew it was a possibility but still struggling with my diagnosis.

After first being diagnosed there seemed to be an endless stream of appointments and decisions to make. I opted not to have reconstruction done just yet after my mastectomy and the surgery was performed just over 3 weeks ago, im healing well physically but struggling with the unknown results of the lymph node biopsy. I already know im most likely going to be having radiation treatment but dreading the thought of having chemo, my mum had a stroke during chemo. I have 3 young sons and worry so much about who will take care of them if im unable to.

Ive also been waiting for results from the genetic testing for around 6 weeks (it could take 8 weeks) and im worried about this too.

I really thought i was holdimg everything together, being strong but seem to have suddenly become very anxious and unable to sleep. Is this normal? Does it get easier? 

  • Hi @Ztee yes what you are feeling is very normal and it will get easier.  Most of us start to feel a lot better once we get our treatment plan and know what we are facing.  Breast cancer treatment has come a long way over the years so your mums experience probably won’t be your experience.  

    You are at the most difficult part of your journey at the moment, the waiting is absolute torture.  I struggled to eat and to sleep.  It will get better.  

    What helped me was chatting to people on here and reading people’s bios (just click on people’s names and if they’ve posted a bio you’ll be able to read it).  There are lots of success stories to give you hope and help you through the waiting.

    Keep reaching out whenever you need to talk.

    Wishing you all the best on this awful journey x

  • Hi it’s really normal, it does get easier, it won’t go away completely but time helps. 

  • Exactly as GodWilling says, you will feel better once you know what you are dealing with and have your treatment plan.

    Your mum's experience with chemo sounds very rare and unfortunate. Chemo drugs have come a long way and although still tough, they do keep a really close eye on you and you can call the cancer helpline for any worries at all.

    It does get easier. Soon you'll know about lymph node involvement and what treatment you will get. 

    Do you know yet what type of cancer it is?

    This time waiting seems endless but you will get through it. 

  • Hi Ztee,

    You have a lot going on at the moment with the addition of what’s happening bringing up memories of your mum. Have you thought of counselling?

    I’m having counselling and well-being coaching through Macmillan and both have been very beneficial for me. You may be able to access something locally too.

    I know counselling is not for everyone but I would definitely recommend it.

    Bluebell xx