I knew my last chemo session would feel strange . It has not been a pleasant experience and was twice weekly for 8 rounds. I knew it wouldn't be the big woohoo as I still have to wait for the side effects and injections to pass over the next week, so as much as family want to celebrate I know I won't feel like it for a while. And then there's still the next stage of radiotherapy and hormone therapy with rapid menopause injections and leterozole (47 and premenopausal) so I guess I'm still blinkered on getting to the 'end' end
I guess I was expecting to feel more of a finality to the chemo part. At the end of yesterday's session a nurse who hadn't done my treatment that day took the canula out and said they needed the chair for the next person and they left the room. I packed my things and left - that was it. I was left blood forms on the table so I checked with the receptionist that it was definitely my last round and she said yes so not sure why they left me them - it just felt routine.
I'm not looking for sympathy as I knew it would feel strange but just wondering what other people's experience has been. I wonder if it will hit in a few days like a delayed reaction. Sorry for the late night ramblings.
the end of chemo is kind of like hitting a wall after you think you swerved the first one.
Suddenly we are at loose ends, the bounce back we had in between ends up declining because the cumulative effects of the chemo are still there. and while we don’t have the infusion we are still tired.and we don’t have those appts set.
I don’t think I ever went wooooo because yes radio still to do and I was still bald, and still had a sore mouth, and food was gah, and still achy and well just tired. But i tried doing more things outdoors, more walks when i could, I finished chemo late Dec, did radio in Dec/Jan finished mid Jan.
and tbh, I felt reticent to climb a ladder until at least mid may. It is going to take time to get the chemicals out, and your body to start feeling less gah.!
but remember to tell your team of any on going side effects and try to enjoy the small things. I am on year 3 after and still have aches and letrozole was more aches, also be aware brands matter and if you have bad side effects tell them u need to change.
it also becomes less fraught after the first year, but welp no, we don’t go back to the eay it was before, but we go on and hopefully here can find people who get that
radiation was quick and mostly painless, get some good water based cream you got this 
BC in 2023, ER + PR- HER2-
AC and taxol, grade 2a , micro in 1 lymph, 2 surgeries
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