Hi ladies, I’m looking for some hope and solidarity I guess! After completing 14 rounds of Kadcyla in July 2025 for stage 2 triple positive, I’m now in that stage where I’m trying to get my life back. I’m 42 on Tamoxifen, Prostap and 6 monthly zoledronic acid infusions. I had 6 Docetaxel and phesgo, full mastectomy and node clearance plus rads. It was a gruelling 16-17 months of aggressive layered treatments.
I’ve been on a really slow return to work from Nov, scaled up to 3.5 full days - I work in sales so fast paced and full on so I’ve tried to take it really slowly. I also have a 3 year old and have been working on strength building at the gym with a PT as well as getting back to my netball. The exercise is the only thing that helps lift my low mood-low energy!
I’ve tried to be mindful but I’ve definitely been tired a lot, especially as work has ramped up in its intensity. I had my last zoledronic in mid March and I’ve been really exhausted since then. I had a full blown fatigue crash on Good Friday. I couldn’t get out of bed I was so fatigued, I felt nausea, my stomach was off, brain fog, head aches the full works. It wiped out the whole weekend I was in bed for most of it.
Since then I feel like I did whilst I was in active treatment. Totally wiped out, I’ve had to scale right back on work, doing an hour or two and then resting. I don’t have the strength to exercise, just little walks etc
After doing so well and living much more normally, I’m pretty crushed. It feels like a huge huge step back when I was so focused on building myself back up. I’m not the most patient and I’m now feeling really low and stressed that this could go on and on. I was really focusing on the light at the end of the tunnel and feel like I’m back at square one.
Keen to hear if anyone else has experienced a similar back step, how long it lasted and how you coped?
I went back to work after full node clearance, lumpectomy and 25 rads, over 20 years ago. Basically had six weeks off and straight back to full time Primary School teaching. No problem. I crashed 5 YEARS later! That's when NHS withdrew support then.
Go back and read what you've been through in the past year. Really are you surprised you've crashed. I think when we are on the treadmill we keep going. When the treadmill stops we crash. How many times have I seen newly Qualified teachers get through the winter term, only to be really ill over the Christmas holidays. It is a common phenomenon in lots of industries. My son in law usually has tonsillitis at Christmas.
The exercise is good but perhaps you need to find something a little gentler than netball for a while. Listen to your body. The walks will get longer and the good days come around more often. Stop chasing the light and take it a day at a time. Hopefully work will be understanding and give you time. If not contact your union and see what they say.
Pace yourself it isn't a race.
Three times! What did I do?
P.S. Tamoxifen is a bitch just by itself!
Three times! What did I do?
I had another read of your post, and wonder if you’ve just tried to power your way through everything and now your body is saying ‘hold on, you haven’t allowed time to rest up when it was needed’…. And decided to crash now instead?
take time out, allow yourself to grieve with everything that’s happened this last year, you’re not the same person outwardly but deep inside you still are, and can be true to your inner self, give yourself time to face and acknowledge the new outward-facing parts of your body.
Have a read of Dr Peter Harvey’s paper, parts may resonate with you…. Will find a link
hugs xxx
Moomy
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