I’m 30 years old and have just been diagnosed with breast cancer - waiting to hear the results from my staging scan (still one week away) and to see what type of cancer I have.
I first found a lump almost a year ago but after having a fibroadenoma in my teenage years, and after googling my symptoms, absolutely nothing pointed towards cancer. I was never planning on getting it checked as everything online said it was benign. I only got it checked in January after a niggling feeling I had in my mind.
I am now convinced my cancer is stage 4 because I left it for so long. I know for sure it has already spread to my lymph nodes as I had one biopsied at the same time as my breast lump. My cancer cells are grade 3. I’ve been having symptoms the past two weeks that are making me suspicious it may have spread to my bones/spine and/or brain.
A few days ago I was enjoying my life, making plans for the future, about to buy a house and start a new job, looking at marrying my partner and now everything has been turned completely upside down and my life has become unrecognisable and I can’t help but think the absolute worst.
I’m dealing with so much guilt and regret for not going to the doctors sooner, and my poor mum is blaming herself for not encouraging me to get it checked. But honestly even three independent doctors in the last month have all said with a fair degree of certainty that it was nothing, and it was only when they found the axilla lump on the ultrasound and biopsied both of them that anyone had any idea that I had cancer.
I’m struggling to find anything positive to hold onto in this whole situation and honestly although my support network are amazing, I feel totally lost and alone
