Cancer - you've spoiled all my plans!

Morning MaC

This is my third time. The first time it was an interruption to my 49 th year. Not much going on at the time. Children were flying the nest and I was happy in my challenging job at a primary school in a very socially deprived area. I had a good social life, disposable income a great hobby in Air Cadets which provided excitement,, and learning new skills. Acrobatics with an ex Red Arrow pilot takes some beating. 

The second time it prompted us to retire. Plans there were really dashed by Covid rather than BC which makes you think.

This time it will be a bigger interruption. It's a different type of BC so treatment is harsher and longer. However the plan was to travel across Canada by train when I'm 70. I started to loose weight so I could get my bum in an aircraft seat, much enlarged since A.C. Days. After two stone loss I found the lump. Would I have found it if I hadn't lost the weight? I have 15 months to catch that train. I have every intention of doing it.

Lots of things spoil plans but others can be made. I hadn't planned on baking today with my 6 year old granddaughter after my first Red Devil on Friday I wasn't sure I would be up to it. This morning I'm good, so she wants to make bread. She likes bashing the dough , so do I.

I'm looking forward to reading the plans everyone else has.

P.S that should read airobatics, acrobatics would have been very different. Thanks spellchecker for that image I have to confess it made me .

Hi MsC19754c 

No kidding it doesn’t wait for a convenient time! 

I was an alcoholic (not proud of this, but also not ashamed), got help to stop drinking and was getting my life back on track. I was rebuilding relationships with my family, very recently started a great new job and had a skiing holiday booked. I had started at the gym and been running a couple of months to focus on my health and was signed up for my first 10k and half marathon. One year into my new life which I was enjoying and starting to feel confidence in, and boom! Everything ruined (or so I thought at the time). I did the 10k as I think I was still in shock but cried all the way round, bailed on the half and cancelled the holiday. Thought life could never be good again. 

Fast forward those awful seven weeks of more tests and waiting, I had surgery and was back in the gym walking on a treadmill 10 days later. Six months after surgery I ran my first half marathon. Don’t mind admitting there were a few tears when I was handed that medal! A year later I went on that skiing trip and it was incredible. It will be two years in February since I was diagnosed and I never thought I would ever say this, but I am currently training for the London Marathon in April! So excited! I am running for MacMillan who were so helpful when I needed support to come to terms with my diagnosis.

If I had to go back the one thing I would change is to have done the things I planned and not allowed cancer to steal those from me. But, no regrets. What experiencing cancer has taught me, is that although some plans fell through at the time, I am actually very fortunate as there are many many more plans which can be made for the future. 

Sending lots of love to everyone. x 

I’m not going to lie I will be so glad to see the back of this year, I got diagnosed on the 3rd of December I am waiting to go for my MRI which will decided my treatment plan.  I live alone and had just sold my home and had a lovely bungalow to move to but with the emotional stress of having bc and trying to move at the same time its just so overwhelming.

I am a foster carer so have had to put that on hold for a while which means I now have no income at all I am very much live for today which has usually been great up until now. I have a little bit of savings but it isn’t going to last long. 

I had so many plans for the the next few months, a young lady who I previously fostered for a few years was coming back which I was so excited about but can’t happen now. Life really gives you lemon sometimes!!

What is it with feeling tired all the time? I feel like continually have the flu.