Can't stop crying off for a CT scan today to see if the cancer has spread how do you keep your head when you feel every ache and pain, due to have a mastectomy in October im just hoping they don't find anything elts.I have to wait till Thursday for the results.Its definitely a roller coaster.Iwas diagnosed in July.
It’s hard going for further scans! I had surgery to remove my small lump and some sentinel nodes knowing from the biopsy that it was small but aggressive and likely to spread. After it was found to be in 2 sentinel nodes I had a CT scan and a bone scan to check for further spread. I was sort of feeling very level about that, no spread to bones, but was then phoned up to go for a PET CT scan to further investigate what seemed to be activity in the intra mammary node chain between my breasts. That involved having a radioactive infusion, lying absolutely still in a dark room for some 30-40 minutes as inactive as possible then having the scan to check for activity in cells. I was relieved that it was deemed to be clear and I was so glad to think that I had primary breast cancer, already treated by surgery with clear margins. and with further treatment to come..
Before getting that result I just kept trying to be calm and rationalise that there could be good news, but at any rate knowing what else there might be for the doctors to help me with was better sooner than later.
Not always successful with the calm rationality! I did find it sort of helpful to tell myself that this was tough on me and could be difficult to accept and deal with depending on the outcome.
All the very best, 
xx
