Bye bYe Nipples BYE bye

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I am jdotjoi and I had my nipples cut off less than 12 hours ago. A week ago we did a nipple sparing mastectomy, one radical and one regular. But alas, my left nipple, just the cutest nipple a girl could ever want, just lost blood supply and died.I cared for the dead nipple for 6 days in hopes my body would save it.

I quit vaping for 4 weeks prior to surgery, you know right when you get the most stressful news that you have cancer, heres your choices, and now take away the method you use to reduce stress! Done. I did it. But it wasnt enough, that little left nipple just couldnt turn pink. It was gray trying to be black. It was dead and now its gone. 

You may ask what about the right nipple. Yeah she lived alright but I guess im some kind of OCD sadist and I cant deal with 2 mismatched nipples. So snip snip, shes gone just like her twin. Maybe if Id grown up with them being different i would have felt different. But now the one goal I am hoping to have at the end is 2 boob shaped tatas that match. Tattooing SHOULDNT EVEN HURT now that they feel nothing!!!. Have to focus on those positives.

So other stuff, I just turned 44. I just had a cervical fusion c4-7 in Sept 24 for spinal cord compression, and before that got healed my 3rd ever mammogram found the invasive ductal, HR+, grade 2. 

And I dont even know what Im trying to say besides like I guess I just was thinking that telling women who may have gone through something similiar would make me feel better. And I think it has. But if anyones having a drink you could do a toast to nipples, ones that are really good at alerting mankind it may be cold in the room, also nipples that bring forth nourishment for babies, and other private things that nipples do and that we love and appreciate them. And to the fallen, like mine, who just couldnt survive my first attack on the cancer. 

  • My lovely nippleless jdotjoi, I'm not a drinker on a regular basis but on this occasion after I have written this message I'm going straight to the cupboard to pull out a drink and me and my two daughters are going to toast your fallen nipple's and my one that is hanging in there. I do hope you feel a little better for sharing with us, I definitely appreciated your message. And the appreciation of what nipples do for us and others.

  • Thank you! It is somehow comforting knowing that. Wish you and your daughters the very best day!

  • Apparently you can get prosthetic nipples now, they get out under the skin so you have that 3d effect/can see them through tops etc then have a tattoo to darken them. Plastic surgeons do this so you’d need to see a plastic surgeon. 

  • I will toast to nipples tomorrow night when I have my wine! Wine glass I had invasive lobular cancer and have since had half of my right breast including my nipple removed. 

    Wishing you all the best with your treatment and tattoos x

  • I just need to say I loved your post. So, thank you. I am soon to be Titless Tatiana...

    The things we do to stay alive!

    Wishing you bestest on your travels.

    Hugs, Shaka 

  • Yes, they talked about all that before surgery but they will be different, and not responsive to touch and such so I still feel the need to mourn the ones I grew up with.

  • Ahhh, im sorry but at least we can still have a glass of wine! Are you wanting or able to reconstruct? 

  • Thank you, I was really in my feels when I wrote it. Learning to process, I suppose.

    Its been days now and Ive learned to giggle at how I look from the side or even better is looking down and seeing my whole stomach, a view I never had and truly never wanted, haha. 

    But we are alive, to laugh and cry and continuously empty our little drainage grenades (if you dont know yet, you will soon). I wish the best back to you! 

  • I’ve been offered surgery to make my boobs even but have declined it. I now have a silicone boob to put in my bra but I always remove it when I have my weigh in at Slimming World…it weighs a ton! Rofl x

  • Oh Ive been thinking I would like to do that temporarily while waiting for reconstruction. I was quite large before so my front and side view is so foreign looking to me! But its so hard to tell too what normal clothes will look like until I get these horrible drains out of my sides.