I am jdotjoi and I had my nipples cut off less than 12 hours ago. A week ago we did a nipple sparing mastectomy, one radical and one regular. But alas, my left nipple, just the cutest nipple a girl could ever want, just lost blood supply and died.I cared for the dead nipple for 6 days in hopes my body would save it.
I quit vaping for 4 weeks prior to surgery, you know right when you get the most stressful news that you have cancer, heres your choices, and now take away the method you use to reduce stress! Done. I did it. But it wasnt enough, that little left nipple just couldnt turn pink. It was gray trying to be black. It was dead and now its gone.
You may ask what about the right nipple. Yeah she lived alright but I guess im some kind of OCD sadist and I cant deal with 2 mismatched nipples. So snip snip, shes gone just like her twin. Maybe if Id grown up with them being different i would have felt different. But now the one goal I am hoping to have at the end is 2 boob shaped tatas that match. Tattooing SHOULDNT EVEN HURT now that they feel nothing!!!. Have to focus on those positives.
So other stuff, I just turned 44. I just had a cervical fusion c4-7 in Sept 24 for spinal cord compression, and before that got healed my 3rd ever mammogram found the invasive ductal, HR+, grade 2.
And I dont even know what Im trying to say besides like I guess I just was thinking that telling women who may have gone through something similiar would make me feel better. And I think it has. But if anyones having a drink you could do a toast to nipples, ones that are really good at alerting mankind it may be cold in the room, also nipples that bring forth nourishment for babies, and other private things that nipples do and that we love and appreciate them. And to the fallen, like mine, who just couldnt survive my first attack on the cancer.
