Hi I’m 12 months post diagnosis and nearly 6 months post smx. I thought i had started to cope and getting a bit of me back until yesterday. Yesterday I had the news that one of my work team and friend died very suddenly and after a non cancer related illness- I did go into practical mode to support my team etc but my insides and head have just crumbled and I am struggling to hold back my grief for the loss of my friend but also me- everything has just flooded back. I’m going to call my MacMillan councillor who has been with me during this last year but I just needed a safe space to share too as I don’t think my family understand what’s happening to me and why I’m so upset. I know we will all have triggers and set backs but I didn’t expect it to be this hard. Thank you for being my safety net
