Sometimes I struggle at this time of year (27th is my birthday and the day my sister & I found out our mam's breast cancer had come back & spread through her body; 28th is the day she died) and this year I think it's compounded by the fact my housing situation is up in the air & one of my best friends is in New York.
Anyway, last night I absolutely bawled my eyes out, proper bawling snotty nose, and I shouted at my mam for letting us find out when we did & for leaving us. Then I felt guilty for shouting at my mam because it's not like she wanted to have cancer in the first place or for it to come back when it did & for us to find out when & how we did. I know why she didn't tell us when she found out in the January (she grew up on a farm & wasn't the sort for giving/receiving sympathy). It didn't make me feel any better though.
Anyway, if you've got this far, thank you. I just wanted to talk to people who have gone through this.
Hi HirplyRockChick
Love the name. Sorry to hear about your Mum and that you are struggling at the moment.
Hope you feel better soon.
Best wishes
Daisy53
