I’m my goodness I am so so not doing well, I am so scared.
I am known for being so resilient and the one who has everything together even when all is total chaos, but this is beyond me!
I have appointment at 3:30 with the surgeon to plan next steps. I was told to expect bad news. I am also of Jewish decent and so extra worried.
I’ve not been sleeping and my pulse is racing and has been for days!
im sorry to moan, today I cannot bring myself to get out of bed.
