Lonely

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Hey, first post here. 

I was diagnosed with invasive lobular breast cancer HER2 positive and estrogen positive a few weeks ago and treatment starts in a few weeks.

I'm 43 and split from my wife in the early autumn. So I'm on my own and had just been starting to enjoy dating and building a new normal when the diagnosis hit. Overall I've been really positive but damn there are some really dark and lonely hours. I'm sure it's thinking that the grass is greener but not having someone by my side for a cuddle when I need it can feel really tough. I try not to dwell on it but its really hard. I have a great support network but most friends have their own lives and families and can't just drop things to be with me. 

I'm not entirely sure what I'm looking for from this but it felt like a safe space to share. Would maybe be good to hear from any other people in similar situatuons to build support and to share the load a little.

Anyway so much love to everyone battling this bastard disease. 

Rachel

  • Hi Rachael, I was on my own throughout treatment. Still am now, but have lots of friends and a lovely son. But I get what you mean. I had a mixed invasive lobular and ductal tumour. Do send a friend request if you would like to. 

  • Hi Rachel, I completely relate and understand. My situation is very similar. I’m 39. My husband and I divorced this summer and then I was diagnosed with invasive ductal carcinoma Her2 positive in October. I have a lot of great family and friends too but I agree, it would be so nice to have someone around to cuddle or comfort me physically. And sometimes I just don’t have the energy for little things like taking out the trash, little things that a partner would be there for. I have two cats who are both cuddly and sweet which do help but be alone so much I get in my head and get down. It can be very difficult. I’m glad you reached out, I’ve been looking for someone to relate to. Let’s keep in touch. 

  • Hi mamaroo sorry to here your feeling so lonely... we can all relate to dark times but im sure you will find lots of support via this site x

  • Hi Mamaroo  it's really hard to find the right words to cover all the feelings that you go through. I have been on my own for 12 years now but generally happy and well. after I was diagnosed my brother has been amazing - he has driven me to every appointment - even hoovered! So I am incredibly fortunate. But at night or when I am on my own the pressure of trying to function and the waiting for results really takes its toll. It feels like a really lonely and difficult existence. I have a wound infection after my second surgery and trying to cover how painful it is and how little I can do after trying so hard is really annoying. I want to be positive and not let this thing define me but sometimes you do need to let it out and this forum is great for that - lots of people who are going or have gone through similar ups and downs, all ready to give support. So stick with it and never be afraid to share.