So yet another update, breast cancer recurrence after 8 years, need a mastectomy just been for the results of ct scan and apparently they found something in my uterus, absolutely devastated, obviously thinking the worse, so yet another wait for an ultrasound then waiting for the results, I just feel like its so cruel that we have to go through this process of one test then another etc.
I know they have to be thorough and they are doing the best for me but I am finding it all so overwhelming, I feel like my whole world is crashing around me, and the worse thing is telling my children seeing them so upset 
I honestly feel like jumping in the car and driving away, I know I can't but my head is telling me to
I consider myself a strong person but I can't seem to get a handle on it this time, really struggling
