Feeling decidedly wobbly this evening!

Hi I know exactly how you are feeling i was there a month ago and its not easy! nobody is strong all the time and I normally see the bright side but this floored me! tomorrow you will know one way or another. Sounds like you have a brilliant hospital! best wishes for you xxx

Hola! All I can say is that this is entirely normal. I too just went with the flow. The day before my results which was to be a phone call as it was last year and during covid times, I lost it a bit and rang the breast nurses. Its an emotional roller-coaster no matter who you are and everyone copes and reacts differently. Its exactly one year today since my surgery and I still have wobble days. Hormones are a bit all over the place and it does take a while to realise what you have been through. Take a pad and pen just in case but buena suerte x

Thank you SuperNanbo and Tired Minion. This has all felt surreal, even when I went in for surgery, but tonight it's suddenly become very real. Hopefully tomorrow I will know where I stand and can reboot my internal computer..which just at the moment is firmly saying NO!

Hi, 

I think you’d need to be a robot not to have  a wobble when faced with such a big day tomorrow. Let yourself have wobble tonight and take a deep breath tomorrow and plough through. I was more than wobbling the night before my results, I just couldn’t stop crying. Like you I felt I should give myself a shake and pull myself together, which I did to an extent and now some days I am very strong and positive and other days I still wobble. I’ve got chemo, radiotherapy and 2 more surgeries ahead and my plan is to get through it a day at a time. Some days I’ll wobble, some days I won’t. I think most people in our position will feel exactly the same. 

I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow. I hope your results go your way. If it’s not the results that you want to hear, know that you will get through it…we are stronger than we give ourselves credit for ️x

Everyone needs a wobble sometimes, and you are totally justified, plus you’re brave to come onto a site like this and confess! 

A general anaesthetic takes a while to leave your system, and you’ve also suddenly realised you’ve been given a cancer diagnosis with all the emotional roller coaster that plunges you into!

i hope tomorrow brings you better news than you are dreading, but remember that bc these days is so much better researched and treated. 

sending hugs xxx

Hi just a line or two to try and reassure you and anyone else that IF the cancer has gone to the lymph nodes it may  not a horrendous thing, and they have plans to deal.

I had 5 of 11 nodes in armpit  infected and I was terrified, like you, what that meant for me

. I have had 6 months chemo  to ensure there were no cells lurking anywhere after surgery and a recent ct scan shows its all gone.

all nodes were removed, yes it was uncomfortable and I'm still numb in places and yes I need 15 x radiotherapy  but the end result is worth it  and I can see the end aporoaching.  I hope to be back to normal living early next year.  its really not as frightening as it first sounds. my doc letter said there was evidence of capsule escape which meant some cells had left the nodes but we got 'em. 

it's amazing that they seem to have a plan for everything  .  it's very possible surgery has sorted you and you may orcmay not need some radiotherapy or chemo to keep it away.  I am in awe of the oncologists and chemo teams, they are incredible. Happy to ans any questions x

Thinking of you today xx 

Hi. I don't know what happened, but I seem to have lost my update that I thought I put on here yesterday,so I'll try again!

I went for my follow up appointment yesterday. The surgeon told me the operation had been successful and that the tumour had been removed. She said the lymph nodes had not been affected as far as they could see, but that because the breast hadn't been taken away it is standard practice to give the patient radiotherapy, and that if any cancerous cells were missed, they would be zapped (her words not mine!) so that is what they recommend for me. I shall have hormone tablets to take too.

The next step is an appointment with the oncologist, whom  hopefully I should hear from within a week with an appointment. The surgeon told me that the oncologist will discuss the radiotherapy with me and appointments will be made for treatment by them.

I feel so incredibly lucky that they appear to have found this and are treating me so early. No one wants to put themselves through radiotherapy, but if that ensures that I am doing everything I can to make sure they get rid of every trace of this, then gosh yes I'll do it!

So now I wait again for the next step on this journey I have found myself on...

Hola Dicha

I am glad you have had good news and are feeling more optimistic. I had my op 9 days ago and still have almost a fortnight to wait for results. I think I am still in denial that I have cancer but am expecting a major wobble before I go for results too, am hoping to get the same news as you with just radiotherapy needed. Hope it all goes well for you.

Take care x

Hi Dicha, I hope you are doing ok following your operation and that your follow-up appointment went well. I am not sure if you know this, but Breast Cancer Now do some excellent publications which might help to fill in some of the gaps from your Healthcare Team. https://breastcancernow.org/information-support/publications/download-order My Breast Cancer Nurse gave me several of these during the course of my treatment and I found them easy to read and really informative. You don't need to order them, you can just download them and read them on your computer. The one titled 'Treating Primary Breast Cancer' is a great place to start.

I also got really into podcasts as a way of learning more and the two I really liked, which you can find on my Podcast provide are:"And Them Came Breast Cancer with Victoria Derbyshire and "You, Me and the Big C" from the BBC. Really sound advice and it helps you to feel not so alone. 

Really good luck with your treatment.