I am really in a quandary and don’t know how to get back into a positive frame of mind. Can you help?
When I was first diagnosed with breast cancer in January 2022 I was very upbeat about everything. All I wanted to do was to have the tumour removed and get on with my life. I didn’t realise there is a lot more to treatment than that especially after I was told about being triple negative. Although I initially didn’t want chemotherapy appreciating the high incidence of reoccurrence with TN I accepted chemotherapy was necessary and I still felt quite positive about it.
In the middle of March I had a lumpectomy and all was well and I was about to start chemotherapy and I had an infection in my breast and my scar split open and chemotherapy had to be postponed.
The wound is slow to heal and I was told it could take months to heal and as chemotherapy could not wait plastic surgery was being considered.
During this time I have been taking 2 lots of heavy duty antibiotics. So generally I have been feeling really unwell. I have had to see so many different types of specialists as well as keep attending appointments to have the dressing changed. There has been little time for anything else.
I have now gone into a deep depression and feel I just can’t cope with this anymore and I really don’t know how I am going to get back in that positive frame of mind to take on chemotherapy even though it looks at long last my wound has started to heal and surgery has been postponed and hopefully won’t be necessary.
As I had previously said I started out being upbeat, i tolerated peoples stupid comments with a smile and I was compliant in doing all the right things. I don’t feel like this anymore and all I keep doing is biting peoples heads off who are trying to help me.
I appreciate it is just bad luck what has happened and no one’s fault.
I would love to hear if any of you had felt this way and come out of the other side and how I can get my positivity back.
I feel for you. No one knows what’s round the corner, mentally, emotionally and physically. I, like you have to-date been v upbeat through mastectomy, 2 x chemos (so far) and 1000 appointments but am dreading going ‘down’. Keeping busy, having positive people around and not talking C all the time has helped. If one more person buys me a book on cancer, I’ll scream!! 
A book on cancer ? That's a bit of light reading 
I have also received the cancer books , fgs people is it not enough we have it , we don’t really want it as bedtime reading too thanks 
