Hi everyone. I'm new here
This is really new to me. I'm not usually a talker, normally very private and don't show my feelings. One year ago today I was diagnosed with breast cancer in the right breast. I have annual check ups and mammograms as I'm a BRCA2 carrier. I have lost my mum and aunt to breast cancer. Once given the diagnoses I opted for a double mastectomy which I'm so glad I made that decision as cancer cells were found on the left breast. Had my surgery on 17th November 2020 and dealt with the surgery relatively well. Coming home was hard though due to living on my own and Covid. I have my dad and 2 younger brothers. Our family is the sort of family that don't talk about feelings , my dad is so old school in that I had my surgery I was home and everything is okay. My youngest brother is great support helping me with cleaning cooking and even washing my hair for me. I am 48 no kids and thankful that I didn't have to have chemotherapy or radiotherapy just been put on Letrozole. I really suffered with anxiety and panic attacks and my GP said I was suffering from depression. My GP referred me to a group called WE ARE WITH YOU. This group was good it was a CBT course done through google meets and I felt like it really helped. I eventually went back to work on phased returned and everyone has been so supportive. But recently I feel the anxiety building up again. Is this because it was the anniversary of mum passing on 12th October a year of my diagnoses and I will be due my yearly check up in December. I never felt much support from my breast cancer nurse I just cant stop thinking that its going to come back. Maybe its because I feel that I can't talk to my dad and that I always worry about him and my brothers, I always put them before everything else. If this has taught me anything its that I need to open up and talk more about my feelings that's why I finally decided to join the group. I'm sure a lot of you had these sort of feelings. Glad to be here to share my experience and hopefully learns some tips from you all...
