1. I’m recovering well after bilateral mastectomy and left side axilla node clearance. 13 nodes removed, 11 diseased, on one side No reconstruction. Nearly seven weeks post surgery, and discharged by breast surgeon, next check up in six months. I’m still a bit sore in one arm and still a bit swollen around the scars or or maybe more lumpy than flat chested. I wonder will the shape continue to even out?. Or will my chest just stay lumpy?
2. First oncology telephone appointment in a few days wondering what to expect? and how long before they actually start chemo? The waiting is the worst. And I feeling terrified about chemo and very anxious.
3. Starting to worry now about work, I’ve been on sick leave for two months, and have another month before my fit note runs out. Although I feel stronger now, and thinking about returning to work. Next week, I’ve got four appointments gynae, counselling , oncology, protheses fitting, so although I’m thinking I should be working, I just can’t fit it all in..
It looks like Chemo will begin soon and that’s going to be a long drawn out process, I’m going to end up totally skint, I live in a small rented flat, earn little and get nothing more than SSP, can’t claim benefits as have just over the savings limit.. which isn’t going to last me long, as it doesn’t cover the cost of living.
My job supporting people with physical disabilities is extremely physical. Statutory sick pay better than nothing coming in. Realistically I don’t think I’m going to be able to go back. But financially I would be stupid not to just get another three months off work, and drag it out, as long as I can, it goes against the grain a bit..
fed up
