Silly thoughts

Hi, it's completely understandable to have these thoughts although I am sure your know that this is not how it works, but rational thinking does tend to leave the room during a cancer diagnosis. It might be worth you having a chat with the lovely nurses at Macmillan (contact through this website) to reassure you or to talk o your consultant or cancer nurse.

Are you due to have chemo?  During one of my bad  “what if” sessions, a friend of mine who works as a radiologist basically reminded me even if things had spread further (this was when I was waiting on scan results) then the chemo would kill it as chemo is not very sophisticated about where it works.  Like you, mine had not spread and I was able to relax when I got my results.

I hope this helps a little and I am sure there will be more lovely people commenting  here too to reassure you,  good luck x

Try not to worry we all feel like that! Cancer grows slow and they would have bumped you up the list if they were worried X Take care

Jayne X 

These are maybe irrational but are not silly thoughts.  All of us here have had a truly devastating diagnosis.  Life has changed forever, but we are on the road to recovery.  I had a lumpectomy and an auxiliary node clearance in June.   As there were a few stray cancer cells at the margin I had to have a second operation and I had to wait five weeks for it as I wanted the same surgeon as I trust him and others, who may well be excellent, are unknown quantities.  Like you I was worried that it would spread but I was assured by my surgeon that it would not be so.  My CT scan was clear.  I started chemotherapy a couple of weeks ago and have my second cycle next week.  I was scared but it has so far been very doable.  You are going to be fine.  Breast cancer is so treatable now and treatments are improving everyday.  It is important to have a positive approach and to be kind to yourself.  Nothing is off limits.  All feelings that you experience are valid and normal for you.  May I wish you success with your treatment and send you a virtual hug?  Maybe find something that you enjoy doing to help you through the next two weeks until treatment starts?  Take care.

I completely understand your fears. I was reassured about this by my medical team when I asked about postponing my operation for a couple of weeks until after my daughter got married.  My surgeon said it would make absolutely no difference as the cancer is very slow growing.  And as said above the chemo will kill any cells which may be be around.

Sorry that you are now also on this journey. Your thoughts are so normal but as many have already said, cancer does not grow tjat rapidly. Hormone positive cancer especially, is slow growing. It will not grow or spread in two weeks. 

It is hard but try to trust in your Oncologu team. They will look after you well. 

Love and light

Wendy