Cannot switch off

Hello  and welcome to a place you’d MUCH rather not know about!

you’ll find we are all in different stages of this wretched illness, but it’s certainly the place to come to vent your feelings. 

Unfortunately you’ll already know there are stages of waiting, waiting for results, waiting for any treatments, waiting for any results post-op etc. So getting good at ‘parking’ your feelings and anxieties is a good idea. But yes, I know, they always emerge in the wee small hours. So developing techniques of meditation can help too. Another good tip is writing down your worries just as you go to bed, then saying ‘that’s it till tomorrow’ as you put the list to one side! 

Sending you a hug xxx

Thank you 

Flipflop59

I'm in a similar place waiting for results is the worse I have had to stop taking HRT so emotions are all over the place if I'm not crying I'm laughing but always one or the other, I find walking helps loads get yourself up a mountain when no one's around and scream as loud as you can, I tried that this morning the sheep looked at me weirdly ha ha but it helps just to get it out, take care x

Yes it’s an emotional time and I’m a qualified work from home florist so I have lots of work on which is helping but I’m crying more than laughing but this is  day 3 since my Tuesday appt and I feel better today it’s just the shock of it especially when I had that squashed my boob in the door and the wire ended up sticking in the breast that got caught then a bruise formed then two weeks later I found the lump so i convinced myself it was due to that mishap 

we are in West Wales on a farm in a wooden pod next week so I will be walking a lot and biding other places aswell

Thank you for the uplift 

So you were told just last Tuesday? I was told a week last Monday then had biopsy results last Monday, a fast growing cancer!!!!! I knew it was bad since then I had a CT scan cos my lymph nodes had the cancer aswel so the CT scan will show if it has spread to lungs, bones etc so in my head my body is full of cancer and I'm going to be offered palliative care when I go to my next meeting! I just cannot believe this has happened and cry? Didn't know it was possible to cry this much, mid conversation I just start crying it's horrendous, told my son today so it's all becoming real now, take care and Wales is beautiful so enjoy x

Yes it is lovely we live in Wales but love  West Wales , I’m sending hugs and love and support to you , I can’t imagine how you are feeling , people keep saying stay positive but it’s easier said than done isn’t it ? I really hope your outcome is not as what are thinking but I’m similar thinking the worst , saying to my husband all sorts of crazy things but I guess that’s what I feel I need to do , just in case x

It’s hard when all you both want to do is cry ‘why me’ and it’s tough to tell family and friends, I’ve been there too. But it’s hard for a carer as well (I’m now caring for husband -married 51 years who has incurable kidney cancer, following my bc, so understand both roles) to watch while someone you love goes through treatment and tough times. So understand for your loved ones and don’t shut them out. 

Big hugs xxx